You scrawl Bread's life ♡

2012-01-24T23:14:00.001+08:00

好累好累
好爱好爱
还是好讨厌心快窒息的感觉
为什么就不停止跳动呢？
这样会好些吧？

好累好累
可是还是
好爱好爱。。。你

My precious

2011-12-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

Been worrying the whole night since I got the message from dad. Although dad told me u guys are fine but I am really worry. The whole car condemned, and I really grateful that u guys are fine. Ce, skype with me to prove u r fine please, I know dad used to lie on me on things that would bring me down.Qin must be freaked out and crying non-stop I bet. I can see Nee is okay but looks tiring, you guys are awesome! SHERO in my heart!

How I wish my flight is tonight and I can fly back to you guys after 17 hours! I miss u...*hugs*

Luckily u r ok! Ce, I am so gonna hug u and squeeze ur fat! muakz

Time flies

2011-12-17T04:56:00.000+08:00

Today is 16th December. I got 4 more days to reach my exam, 7 days to leave my dreamy room and 8 days to meet my love <3. Okay, just like what you seeing, I am totally in a stress-free situation. No No, a pretending to be stress-free situation. What am I talking about? Okay, Shut up!

Since I start my degree, my blog has become a place I will think of when I get hurt or when I am too boring, how pathetic it is...

Today I am here, because...okay,as usual, I am too boring and the essays are killing me. I was actually thinking about my essays, but after a few mins, mind turns to think about food, then Penang, then home,then people, then shopping mall... The moment I was back to reality, it's already 40 mins later. HOW GREAT!! Give myself a little rest to crap at here would probably clear my mind and a little getaway from those stupid essays.

I am so gonna play hard and do hard when I back to Penang. OH! not to forget EAT hard! 2 courseworks have to finish and pass up during early January, my BPTC application forms, My HO HO HO Merry Christmas and HA HA HA Happy New Year and my Gong Xi Fa Cai!!! Okay, too far...

Enough crap for today I think...

I thought of writing down some memories in Oxford as well as London and of course Scotland. But, I am too lazy my dear. Plus, NOW everyone got Facebook, look at the photos is better than your crap in the blog, what a great excuse for myself!!

Will decide again someday later, maybe a day when I am EXTREMELY ABSOLUTELY bored?? Probably.

Whatever~ this blog is just a link that I wanted to refer back my life when I get old. No ones care ><

To the future Ming, YES! You are really seriously boring and have to crap all these to make your life a little bit more interesting at this moment! 2011.12.16 20:53 UK time... during ur peak time (not to forget). PLEASE!don't slap your own forehead when u read back and please don't show it to ur children or grandchildren... SO SIA SUI!!

The smile you give me =)

2011-11-21T07:55:00.002+08:00

I already used to the life that you greet me morning and good night before I go to bed and I greet you good night and sweet dream when I am going to have my dinner. First thing I do in the morning is read your line messages and the last thing I do before I go to dreamland is sending you a good night kiss. I don't dare to be too happy, I scare the angels will jealous and cut down my happiness but I can't control myself for smiling around like an idiot when I was thinking of you. =)

I should be in a very stress situation now, 2 courseworks due in 2 weeks time and an exam coming on next month. But, All I thought of this few days were my short "vacation" back to Penang. A sweet date with my family, friends and of course you <3. Like I told you, Although my ALM due date is tomorrow, opps, today, and I still left 2k words to go, but all I was thinking is you.

I <3 you

and don't worry, last minute is like my maxim, as long as I don't start my courseworks few hours before due, I am not in rush at all ^^ so, dad won't scold you because I will never get bad result due to that. *cross fingers*

朋友？

2011-11-12T10:21:00.003+08:00

第几次了，到底要受多少次教训你才懂得?

别那么容易相信人

不管他说多相信你，多感激你

最后还是会被出卖的

别傻了

天真已经不存在了

大家只会觉得你单蠢

别再相信人了好吗?

那种痛，你受不起的。。。

听话了，不要了

还有，要学习如何笑

多痛都得笑，笑了就好了

要相信，自己很幸福，要笑

LoV3 this matter

2011-11-09T08:39:00.003+08:00

This quote is definitely no wrong in anyway. But if you use it in an extreme way, troubles are the matters.

Friend's relationship is in trouble and I feel so sad that even she told me everything but I couldn't help. Love and relationship might be involved many other people but the solution will only come out from the couple, others can't help.

Despite the solution, what they need is to stick to what they have planned. Someone once told me - - When you lost, please think back what make you start at the beginning, this will lead you to success. There is another useful quote I saw in FB - - Everything will be fine in the end, if it isn't, it is not the end.

I believe everything will be fine someday somehow, and I know this is hard, but drag is really not a good thing, it makes thing worse and cause more harm to more people and eventually yourself. So yup, be happy and live longer my dear ^^

You would sort it out, and I know it is hard at the beginning but it's really time to put an end. Please give yourself a better future instead of a complicated and messy one.

2011-11-03T22:39:00.001+08:00

原来女生是用水做的

I am fine

2011-10-29T00:26:00.003+08:00

I am fine. I really do. I just feel cold when night comes, feel insecure when fear hits and feel helpless when I am alone. I am fine. I can smile to everyone and myself on the mirror, I can even smile in my diary, and I am fine. =]

I used to think the power of my imagination is great, I mean strong. I can imagine anything to make myself calm and warm. I can imagine my family was watching the series with me when I was watching drama alone, I can even imagine you are right beside me when I was walking alone in the dark. Indeed, it makes me strong and independent as my friends have seen. But, today I realised, when I really feel alone in the cold, my imagination only helps me towards a bad way, I tried to imagine something good is gonna happen or a bright future, but all I had is bad dream.

Now I know, dreams change when your mood changes. And it changes when you get mature. It become strong when your naive gone.

There is always rainbow after the rain. Don’t worry my dear, just being unhappy, I will be fine when the sun rise on the next day ^^ I know I will.

Over d?

2011-10-21T01:46:00.001+08:00

It's kinda fast...

bakka

2011-10-14T19:47:00.002+08:00

自己犯贱要交的朋友，没人帮得到

说过不为他们哭，又哭了，真笨

但谢谢peng peng成为我诉苦的对象

借我她的肩膀

终于找到一点温暖 =]

外婆，阿姨

2011-10-11T14:22:00.002+08:00

亲爱的外婆，我想你了，亲爱的二姨，我也想你了，比想象中还要想念你们。听到你们的声音，眼泪就不知觉，掉了。好想念你们。想告诉你们我有多不开心，我有多不适应，我有多不想成为朋友的夹心饼干，但听到你们担心的语气，自己还是忍了下来，我好想念你们，想念抱着外婆撒娇的日子。你们问我功课难吗？是难的，但我不想让你们失望，我多想告诉你们，我很不喜欢没有你们在身边的日子，我好想你们

好笨

2011-10-08T19:24:00.002+08:00

以为自己长大了，就不会那么天真了，但...还是被骗了

以前是好友，现在是同学

大家都知道我好骗吧

但在全班面前揭穿，好玩吗？

"ohh... so huaiming..." 这句话是什么意思？

真的那么无知吗我？

全场人在笑的同时，谁发现我的无奈苦笑了

说过不再为你们哭了

我真的没哭，因为你们不值得

以为自己比以前多疑，比以前不信任人

甚至比以前会看人的心机了

但还是会忍不住相信人

你们知道吗？

我只是不想怀疑每个人说的每一句话

想想如果你在说着真话时没人相信

你寂寞吗？伤心难过吗？

无所谓了，我应该又会筑起那道墙了

这只勾起被好友欺骗的回忆

心痛的感觉，我最不想要感受的感觉

无所谓，我就是这么的笨

昨晚有想过要改变自己

但清楚知道，自己再怎么努力都学不来

那种社会的生存法则，也耍不起心机

算了吧，不应该为了人而改变的

至少做自己，我是活得开心充实的

在这天寒地冻的环境里

突然感觉自己好像一只蚂蚁

想要在这里找到可以给我一点点幸福感觉的东西

即使不是属于我的

传染给我，让我替他感受一点点的甜蜜

我就满足了

生活其实好累

从来没有停过往前冲的感觉

难道我就不能停一停

读书好累

我好累

in the air

2011-10-06T03:33:00.003+08:00

Thank you so much... except this I don't know what can I really say.. ><

Long distance is a tough mission and different time zone has made the mission even tougher. I feel so guilty that you everyday stay up until mid night just to accompany me and have a tiring next day, I'm so sorry >< Although you told me that you were always late for class but ... still my fault..

It's really happy that I can come back on January. This makes everything seem to go to a right bright way, I was so happy that dad agreed (although with conditions), so I can step a little nearer to you.. and we can know each other more, n step closer to the hearts.

Although I never say the three words after that message, neither do you, but we both know the effect of the words is working between us. And yes! you are trying to make me more greedy! >< I thought we will ok with only chat and skype for the coming months, but now I feel like hugging you. This is definitely your fault XD

But Kit... I LOVE YOU

For ... ^^

2011-10-03T03:21:00.004+08:00

YEAH! I am happy little girl, jumping around the room like a crazy little puppy ^^

Thank you! Thanks for everything!

I know you somehow will look at this post, so yes, I am talking to you ><

Although there might be a little awkward at first, a little stupid on me but ... who cares!! I just wanna be with you

ILU, IMU

我需要的幸福

2011-10-02T04:06:00.003+08:00

有人能轻轻将你抱起的感觉真好

看着路边的情侣

眼中只有彼此的瞬间

自己也能感觉到他们的幸福

真好 ^^

想念你又能怎样

或许我真的不用想太多

一个人

就好

一个人的幸福

比什么都好

至少

我痛得少 ^^

a little crazy moment

2011-09-29T05:30:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, after the potluck, suddenly felt the "braveness" and I wrote a letter. I sent it out before I finish my "braveness". Then, I go to bed. Unfortunately, I had a bad dream, this cause me woke up early in the morning and started to think if I was doing the right thing...

After a few minutes, I started to regret, why am I rushing? I asked my friends should I just delete it before he receives it when he online, everyone asks me to wait for his respond. One of my bff said :" just ask yourself, will you regret after you delete it?"

After a second, my answer is "yes, I will. and I definitely don't have the courage to send it again..."

Since I am still in UK, this makes me opportunity to escape the awkward for 10 months, so ... some crazy thing has to be done when you're still young right? ^^ I am still waiting... good or bad... no hurt no disappointing.. just wanna you to know that ... ILU

2011-09-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

胸口的酸痛感，证明着我的心。。。还在~

2011-09-27T00:50:00.001+08:00

cupcake,

你知道吗？我快不行了。。你一直出现在我梦里。。我好累。。讨厌我天蝎座的性格，讨厌我天蝎座的执著

2011-09-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

眼睛离不开你的照片，我疯了

I hate u ming

2011-09-22T22:03:00.003+08:00

You know, I really don't like here. I was a girl that will not cry when I face problem, I only will cry for the loved one, but this few days, I almost finish up the tears that I save for the past few years. I think I really can't handle it. I screwd up everything. My dad's money, my dad's wishes, my subjects, my friendships and my life. Feel like dying...

2011-09-22T15:14:00.001+08:00

这痛，我不要了

2011-09-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

shouldn't have tell you anything ... is not like didn't happen before ...

不哭，永远不知自己是 ... 脆弱的

2011-09-14T23:49:00.003+08:00

我 ... 又哭了

想家，想人，想朋友

更想你了

我 ... 说过不在人面前哭的

我 ... 可以的

明天我 ... 不会哭的

我 ... 现在还是哭了

Calm

2011-09-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

don't be so greedy my dear

you know HE had help you for the coincidents

you are not going to ask for more

your greedy will make you now

and nevertheless trouble him

remember?

you are adult-to-be

stop acting like a childish innocent lady

you are not

and you are not going to be one of them.

IMU

2011-09-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

杯子蛋糕，

告诉你哦，我的level提升了。我已经发疯到看到你的名字会笑，听到你的名字会在心里放声大叫，紧张紧张。以为只会见到你两次，但居然连续三天都见面，开心的同时，也贪心了。心里想要再一次再一次。虽然期待会带来失望，但我不管了 ><

幸运之神好像还是疼爱我的 ^^ 10个月后见吧杯子蛋糕!

还有，可不可以不要一直让我看到你的好，给点坏嘛，我可能就不会那么爱你，那么想你了。

最后，谢谢，我会一直一直记得星期六的“我自以为的”甜蜜。可能你都已经忘了你自己做过什么，但你的小小举动，我是那么珍惜。你的好，我多想要感受到，即使是在那遥远的小岛。

婴儿蛋糕

a letter to you

2011-09-07T23:08:00.001+08:00

Dearcupcakes,

While settlingthe bank thingy, I suddenly realised today is already 7^th. YES! Itmeans there is less than 10 days. I am going to step on the different land andlook at the different sky. I am not going to step on this little pretty islandwith you within a year. I was counting how many times I still have … the chanceof seeing you are like praying to meet the pop star. I guess I still have 1more time before I leave. Or two? Or none…

I actually don’tcare how my friends look at me. Yea, I admit that when I face to someone I like… or love? … I don’t know what I should do. I feel helpless and losing my mind.I searched everything about you, I asked my friends about you and

I even tryevery chance to move a little closer to you. OK! I am a stalker! But only toyou I swear.

My friendssaid, OOI HUAI MING! Siao liao ah?! Or WEI! Enough talking about him, you didn’teven know his real life. Ish~ I don’t care ^^

You know, Ifelt happy when you like my post, I felt like dying when you send me gift,although they are just a little thing that you would have forgotten after the nextsecond you did it, but I melted, I really did. I wish I can read your mind, atleast I know where I stand in your mind. Sometime, I was thinking “love” is sounfair. You stand an important place in my heart but maybe I was just1/100000000000 in yours. Or maybe less than.

I wish Ibrave enough. I wish I can walk to you and say “hey, I like you, like … a lot”

*slap slap*

Anyway, Iam going to try to forget you although I know it is not going to happen sosoon. I don’t want to suffer like the life when I m in high school. I promisedmyself I will never make myself look like a pity little girl begging on loveagain. NEVER! * but I think now I really look like huh?! *

This is thefirst I wrote about you and I believe there are more to go. I know myself toowell ^^ This may sounds emo, but actually I didn’t, I am typing in happy modewith full of the little memories we both owned.

Baby cakes

幻想

2011-09-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

突然发觉幻想不是一件坏事，至少可以满足我小小的虚荣心，或小小的愿望，还有还有。。。小小的童话式爱情

很多人也许不削王子与公主般的爱情，但我很相信，有一天，我最喜欢的王子会牵起我的手，对我说 “我爱你”

最近爱上“芭比公主”系列的童话故事，还是很老套很幼稚，但，我就是喜欢。

幻想能满足很多现实生活里不能满足东西，如果有机会，当然一定要尝试，但如果知道没机会了，想想也不错啊，至少自己满足了，别人又不会受伤害，更不用怕困扰道他

想想，我也开心。

Smurf

2011-08-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

The famous cartoon currently will be "The Smurf"

so, u should try to enter the smurf world with a brand new name, as in "smurf name"

http://bluebuddies.com/smurf_fun/what_is_your_smurf_name/what_is_your_smurf_name.htm

got this link from a blogger, n it's cute. I thought of sharing it on fb but I couldn't login my fb, so here it is.

It's too cute that I shouldn't keep it to myself. Oh! I got my smurf name, it's a little kiddy. It's "Baby Cakes Smurf" >< *shy*

The old town posers

2011-08-19T02:59:00.004+08:00

I am loving my iPhone LemeLeme function. Before I actually got a proper awesome camera, iPhone will be my best buddy when I want to catch the moment.

These are the old town cats at the most historical place in Penang. They are cute and unexpectedly, a poser. They actually posed when I took out my iPhone ^^ *how cute!!!*

Before I took up my iPhone, they were sleeping. Nice to meet you ^^ old town cats

Great Performance

2011-08-19T02:25:00.005+08:00

Thanks to my internet speed, finally I can upload my photos ^^

As I mentioned, my nieces' performances. Here we go ^^

This is a charity performance held by the JET kinder garden. My eldest niece did perform once about a year ago. But this time, two of my nieces are going to perform together on the same stage and it's my 2nd niece, Qin first performance! It's huge in our family ^^

My 3 years old niece, Qin

My 6 years old niece, Nee

DONE make up ^^

DONE too ><

Teachers were arranging their rows

The Kids

My 2 pretty princesses were wearing malay baju kurung ^^

The song name I guess was "Kita orang Malaysia", due to some technical problem, their dance was forced to stop before the song was actually done playing.

As we expected, Nee danced very well but Qin was kinda "cheaty" on the stage. Some more dare to show me ghost face while performing. But, at least the "crying princess" didn't cry on the stage, in fact she was kinda enjoy, I guess is because her sis was just right in front her ><

Little adult huh? ><

After that, went to Bro's old friend's son full month party. His house is just beside the QE II and of course beside the sea. BBQ and hear bro's friends talked about their past ><

The 2 fatty ><'''

The view and feeling was good but not the smell please ><

new born baby shouldn't take picture so ... no photo allowed ><

2011-08-19T02:13:00.001+08:00

<良藥苦口利於身，忠言逆耳利於行>

忠言逆耳，懂不懂，做不做，行不行，就看你的造化了

Bao Bei

2011-07-29T22:03:00.004+08:00

Xiao Bai

and Xiao Bai

You're getting fat, naughty and dirty now ><

But I still love you, except your habit that like to bite my feet ><

*next will be my nieces dancing post ^^, I think I should rajin a bit d >< post blog, blog and blogsssss

2011-07-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

Who will blog on Saturday night?! It's a night to be fun, sad to say that, I will~

Before I came to "new post", It seems a lot of things appear into my mind that I wish to write out, but, once I connected to the "posting" part, phoo, gone. Never mind, I don't mind to blog some crap since this blog only who know me will view ^^

Last week, my internet get cut off due to my brother forgot to pay the fee for 3 months, unbelievable thing happened! I still can survive in my house without any internet, Woo! GROWN??!! Teehhh!! Wrong. I got bunch of taiwan, hongkong, korean and chine series to finish. Luckily this just happened for one week.

and YES, after two weeks, my room finally can be say as clean =) so ... welcome to my room ><

Should I throw all my magazines or buy another bookshelf? hmmm. I think I would take the former since I have no money to buy something expensive.

Let's see what else can I crap about...

Recently was insane about iPhone applications, normally is camera and games. Due to my laziness, photos are not going to be upload here, you may waiting on fb to try ur luck ^^

Holidays are not fun at all, especially when everyone is not in holiday mood as u and u are holiday while waiting letter to be sent to u *Big Sad Face*

Feel like going outstation, Bangkok or the city of lion? Useless B! Go ur own without me, no souvenir for u when I come back from study!! But you must bring me souvenir, I Don't Care!!!

day with 2 naughties

2011-07-13T23:17:00.003+08:00

Annyeonghaseyo!

It's been some time I did not blog with a real photo right? So, since I was so embarrass today because of my 2 darlings, I am going to mark it down as an evidence, remind me how u treat me~ sob sob~ *but I will still love u as usual, muakZ*

The first photo was a total failure due to the naughty keep chasing me back, but it's cute doesn't it? This is after bath and injection ^^ now they smell so nice but after a week of no shower due to the injection, they will SMELL even "better".

Let's start the story. Is the forth month, that's mean "xiao bai" needs his second injection. Since I know he cannot shower for one week after the injection, so I showered this naughty and his mother, my "chow chow" before we heading to the clinic. Phew~ shower for both of them is a total torture because naughty like to climb to my back and smell plus bite my hair, this makes me so hard to shower chow chow, even harder to shower him.

After my own shower, I brought them into my car and when I start my engine @.@ Chow chow poo! Gosh! It's super smelly, at first I thought I can stand to reach the clinic but no way! I return to home and clean it up and start our journey again. But I suddenly realised I did not bring their clinic cards, head back to take and start our JOURNEY again!

Reach. Finally? NO! The story just begin! I asked "xiao bai" to wait me in car and told him I will come back for him after I settle chow chow, so he sat on my seat properly. I opened the back door and chow chow lost control, she ran out. It's too fast to let me think, I chase her without lock my car and take my purse >< She is a fast runner, there's few workers help me to chase but none of them reach her. Luckily, I am a fast runner too ^^ I manage to catch her but she drag me on the sand floor and plant me some scratch Y.Y

I thought everything will be fine on the road to the clinic but she drag me to bang my head on a car and makes me fell down with a super ugly position in font of 7 or 8 shops with 20 plus people starring on me. This is insane! I stood up and ran. Finally reach the clinic and I realised there is a new worker, so I passed to him and told me to hold chow chow, cause xiao bai is waiting with tears! I did not wait him to answer and I ran out again. I still can remember his shocking face, I think because my hair was super messy and my hands hurt!

Finally the two in clinic ad when I was dealing with the new guy about their records, the two poo and pee all around the clinic @.@ Worst day ever! They never did that to me before, revenge for leaving them in Penang alone for 1 week? *faint*

When I opened the doctor's door, ah ha, the new worker is the doctor, awkward~ I thought he was just a worker. I always meet another elder doctor and today he is not here. The new guy was very nice and told me some dog's things that I should know. Not to mention his good looking ^^ *this is the POINT*

They helped me to put them into my car and FINALLY they are home. Send my car to wash as well wash my own self. NAP! What a tiring day with my 2 naughty darlings.

I am happy that u understand what I said ^^ love u naughty

This bad girl knock me down @.@ but I will still love u, with a condition that u will never do that to me agin, MuakZ

I hope I could live with them for the rest of my life, You'll always be my love ♥♥

My dearest BFF

2011-07-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

Great gathering tonight. Although there's people couldn't make it but still GREAT CHATTING. Did a lot of catch up ^^ which is what this gathering meant to be. I am so glad that I have this bunch of friends to be my best friends, from the beginning until the end of this long life. It's hard to find a group of good friends in this cruel society. Although I still have other groups of best friends but this group! We start our faith since we were in primary school! This is too precious and it's meant to be held in tight.

I am glad that everyone is healthy and happy like we always do. Love stories are composing everywhere, no matter in Aussie or KL. We treat our love right and serious with different methods. That's why we both have our love stories composing smoothly. *crossfingers* PROMISE we must happy together forever and ever after.

We met different people and have our different stories and love stories. As long as the right person treat us well and the society haven't knock us down, we are still the lucky one!

I love u, my friends <3<3

There are a lot of things we would not say it clear but we know it well. Anything happen, there's always friends beside and behind, so don't afraid of lying down.

Maybe we cannot meet for the coming days and months but we are still each other best friends >< muakz

2011-07-04T00:05:00.003+08:00

Ello people! Again, It's time to summarize what I have been done during the period I disappear ^^

First, my puppy "xiao bai" grow with double speed, so now he is a HUGE puppy

*p.s. no more little so BE CAREFUL!

Second, went malacca v Kumar, Egg and Chang Jie. 3 days 2 nights, oppss, 3 days 3 nights plus P.D. as well >< It was totally FUN and tired!

Third, oh la is back and now he is staying in my previous room in rainbow house. So, ah ha, I dun have room to stay when I m there.

Forth, Caca is back too, but just for 2 weeks and until now, I just met her once Y^Y

Fifth, Oh yea, I failed my law and religion. The very first subject I have to resit ><. My dad scolded me so hard, he blamed me because I broke my record and wasted his RM100...

Last but not least, a little announcement that maybe will cause me trouble tomorrow, I have a bf again!

smack on forehead? yea, I know I am not following what I said previously, but I can't help but follow my feeling. and the "BF" is not others, is ... you yi Egg! haha, I know... u guys will probably think, "luckily is not a new one ><"

the statement of " I am loyal" seems doesn't suit me anymore

-the end-

2011-06-14T00:27:00.001+08:00

I wonder why I can be such a weird person and I never know what I really need =(

What I may lost if I din say

2011-06-10T01:02:00.002+08:00

It's been a month and I practically doing nothing in my house. It's not actually 'nothing' but it's just not something that makes me excited and alive. I am so damn very super boring. Luckily, there's friends around me, Reelee, Robin, Egg and Mj. But, still bored. I need something more meaningful to appear in font of me. Not true love please, I want it few years later, thanks.

Anyway, just thinking of telling something that recently makes me down and teas a lot.

Kumar, Egg, Peng, Irene - "I know it's quite difficult to tell u how much I care. I am not good in express my love either by actions or words. But I do care. I miss the time we are studying. We together wake up, go college, lunch, shop, play, movie, cook, dinner, wandering, swim, gym, celebrating, fighting with our main enemy - cockroach. I miss that a lot, is like A LOT. I know there's still a trip! Although don't know when, I hope you guys can wait me recover from my operation. I really wish to spend more time with u guys. Like a "family". There are fight, quarrel and sad things happened among us but there's lot more fun and happiness we earned together. I love you! maybe more than u ever thought."

Nicholas, Rainbow, Cai Chin - " You guys makes us so much fun, you touch my deepest heart many times, you guys are awesome! I love evey of us play and laugh together. I love every moments we been through!"

KarWai, YingPhin, WeeJian - "you guys are fun and a little crazy that makes me totally fell back to my 18th! It's nice and FUN! I miss DongZhen Camp when we are staying and playing together. Of course gils' talk with my dearest Phin^^"

A little regret choosing the twinning programme, it's like separating us apart, we used to be stick together for the whole long day. Badminton section? it seems far from me now. In Penang, here's never a thing can be fun like this. No sports, no energy, no healthy. Anyway, I miss you, I love you!

*p.s. hey, still remember the story of sausage? cheese and black pepper? I still prefer cheese >< Peng, black pepper is yours <3<3

2011-06-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

I think I am just a little missing you <3

2011-05-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

Thank you for everything!

Really!

2011-05-23T02:10:00.000+08:00

and yea, It happened, again~ Y^Y

2011-05-23T01:32:00.005+08:00

Wonderful!

After so long, I decided to let my heart locked again!

It's been so long I use it and didn't give it a rest

Now,

for the sake of my future,

for the sake of my health,

for the sake of my feeling,

for the sake of my family,

for the sake of not hurting anyone,

for the sake of not being hurt,

I locked it again.

When will I let it function again?

This ... I would say :"till the day it feel it worth to"

This of course not for my family and neither to my friends

I am tired to be someone's someone

I should be just MYSELF

It's indeed my fault

I should have think it properly

I love my ex roommate!

This two times! She warned me a lot

I will listen to you next time I PROMISE

I know, I am a big trouble,

even my beloved parents said that,

what I choose to do would totally surprise them,

out of their expect and of course to my friends as well.

Good or Bad? depends~

I am selfish,

I am greedy,

I am weird,

I am who I am.

I can say there is never a person can change me if I don't want to,

even my family.

I rather a friend hates me or back stab me than I go after her like a puppy

That just makes her not even call as a "friend" to me

A bit go wrong way =='''

What I am trying to say is

"don't judge a book by its cover"

the quotation above I used to feel that it is for those childish kids,

to prove that they are cool and everything they done is not their fault and its under their control

However, now I feel I just need it to express

although I added something I feel childish as well

"don't judge a book by its cover and expect it to be something you thought of which in fact it is nothing of what you thought at the first place"

yea, it came like this.

Overall, It is not FULLY my fault

I m wrong as well as you

Now, my goal is

1. Finish degree with flying colours *this is a MUST*

2. Further my studies until I can officially work

3. Earn more money to take care of my parents, my grandparents, my siblings, my nieces and my DOG's future.

4. I want to be someone independent enough to hold the world by my own hands

2011-05-20T23:28:00.002+08:00

How to decide?

Since there are possibility that it would happen again

how I gonna let it hurt you again?

Is not like I don't know you

I know you well, this is why I am so hard to make decision

2011-05-07T17:32:00.001+08:00

Totally not in study mode!

2011-04-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

I just LOVE to be "ME"

now, not only my "ME"

I am enjoying being your "ME" too

Love u so much of course

and I miss you!

2011-04-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

That's my B

n This is ME!

They are us recently, preparing our weapon to fight on the REAL war!

Our friendnemy is of course our Y2 exam!!

So everyday you would probably see us hanging around in Fo Xue Yuan~

What a wonderful month~

*should I say "with love"??*

Yea, probably when we gone through~

MUAKZ!!

Puppies!

2011-04-03T20:41:00.003+08:00

Chow Chow was pregnant for the past 2 months and my whole family did not notice it, even me, the one that always shower for her! ridiculous isn't it??

My brother woke me up from my lovely nap and told me my chow chow get raped, my first reaction was "she always get raped~" and the next second, my brother told me that when he reach home, what he saw was blood and a puppy rolling on floor, he was shocked! And yes! 4 puppies came to this world in this meaningful day 03042011. Why is it meaningful? because they gave birth when I was cooking "yi" ^^

I was so "gan cheong", I thought my dog don't know how to give birth and I some more ask my brother send her to hospital, and nevertheless, my brother ignored me. ==''' However, this breaks the statement that my dog is a lesbian and she cannot pregnant ( I sent her to intercourse with other male dogs before but failed to pregnant). Maybe she still les?? because she get raped, not purposely go seduce male dogs perhaps? haha

Fortunately, she was fine after give birth to the 4 puppies which I already give them names now. 1st white male puppy is Aussie, 2nd black male puppy is Bugsy, 3rd black female puppy is Chiko and the last white male is Doodle. ABCD so cute!!! Chow Chow is weak, I should cook birdnest for her perhaps?? ^^

Go back next week just to see them, although I promise my parents won't go back until mid of April. ^^P Hope to see them in real but not 3G! will post up photos probably ^^ *HAPPY*!!!

2011-03-23T12:32:00.002+08:00

I Love U

2011-03-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

脱下眼镜

进入一个模糊的世界

只有自己才看得见的世界

虽然没安全感

但有时候是一件好事

至少

我可以避免想要批评人的冲动及欲望 ^^

2011-03-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

NO MORE EXCUSE!!

2011-02-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

我真的不想伤害你

原谅我的自私

对不起

2011-02-16T21:23:00.002+08:00

IELTS ---> 19/2

EU coursework ---> 24/2

Law and Religion ---> March??!

Can the tic toc just stop at somewhere

stop moving or just drag

but I need it to move faster after June ^^

Again! Hey Ho to myself

Aza Aza Fighting!!!

2011-02-09T00:11:00.002+08:00

不知不觉又恋上你的影子

我又开始想念你了

难熬吗？

不，我是享受的

想念你对我的宠爱

谢谢你

honey ****

2011-02-08T00:18:00.000+08:00

The fact told me I wouldn't have it until June T^T

2011-01-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

人心难测

睁大双眼

训练口才

相信自己

观察别人

长大吧!

慧敏

2011-01-25T22:22:00.003+08:00

I believe this is the best CNY gift to my parents this year

my dad is like so calm when I told him,

after awhile only feel the excited I was having at the moment =='''

This do gain my confidence to this course and

do push me to be RAJIN

so... enjoy the pressure Ming~

I told myself those sentences in the afternoon

and I sleep and rolling on my bed in the evening

haha, what a RAJIN person!!

Of course I overslept and

what I plan to do today for my coursework

Poof~ gone

so after this blog, start the first word of my coursework

2 days to go ^^

I hope can do a bit shopping before I left PJ

One U is enough for me ^^

and of course continue my crazy grabbing in Penang

Queens perhaps~

2011-01-16T13:44:00.000+08:00

颓废!

懒惰!

没得救了我 ><

2011-01-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

Everything has to plan again =)

Although I'm not usually follow what I've planned

but if I don't want to left anything behind

I think I need to plan

and try to follow it

like carefully?

Game start?

2010-12-23T15:41:00.001+08:00

累瘫了

2010-12-07T14:33:00.002+08:00

Ooi Huai Ming

I know this moth is hard for you

but

take out your stubborn spirit

believe that there is always sunshine

after the rain

so GAMBATTE!!

Luck will arrive when you believe it

2010-11-30T12:14:00.003+08:00

Life is hard

but we still have to move on

think a lot these day

why I chose this as my subject

start to blame myself

for randomly pick

however

think deeply

since you already chosen it

despite how you did

you should move on

enjoy it

make it interesting in your life

then you will make life easier

since you have to walk alone in the future

why not make your future stick on you

at least we won't die without anyone

NEVER REGRET what you chose

the key to make life easy ^^

2010-11-23T11:19:00.004+08:00

Life is too stress while waiting the exam to arrive on you

so ... let's escape this reality from this town for 2 days 1 night

gonna meet the prettiest couple ever in my life in few hours time ><

*excited as you do*

2010-11-21T20:53:00.003+08:00

Totally no idea what I have studied!

I tried my best to focus but still ...

bad dreams come again,

every single night,

people chasing me,

drowning into water,

someone betray me,

uh, what else?

those mean stress comes back to me

although normally I don't feel any stress

people feel I am always stress-less

even me myself feel that too

but in fact,

I just didn't realise they are exist

deep in my body

I think I am normal ...

"people in town with lots of stress"

yea, my new label~ ^^

2010-11-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

*hugsssssssssss*

2010-11-14T01:57:00.002+08:00

LOVE my current blog

the music makes me feel

relax and peace

maybe it is the way I need

relax in my little world and

escape from reality

hmmm...

I wonder my friends feel the same?

relax in here

listen the music

even though u ignore my posts ^^

this world is just too much stress

and we need the RELAX

2010-11-13T15:30:00.001+08:00

HATE that I'm still in love with you

*after 1 and a half year*

2010-11-10T22:16:00.006+08:00

My Healthy Timetable

7am welcome the sunshine & dress up

8am college

3pm back from college & take an hour nap

4pm wake up from nap & shower

4.30pm study

6.30pm dinner

7.30pm fb, mail & series

8.30pm shower & relax

9.15pm study

10.30pm SLEEP!

There is changes on Wednesday and weekend

but not the study part

*hope so*

YEAY! Let's get healthy as this Moo Moo!

and hardworking as well

although it doesn't LOOK like hardworking...

but in fact may be IT IS!

2010-11-07T23:39:00.004+08:00

YES! After gossip girl and 90210,

This is the series I start on

I know I shouldn't start any series anymore

since the exam is less than 1 month

but ... I can't control myself

I just simply love movies and series ^^

BTW,

Elena is so beautiful

look into her eyes is like everything could happen

just simply gorgeous!

*better than bella, agree? =P

no offence

since there's no good man
maybe I should love vampire instead of human?
of course the good vampire like Stefan
Damon is handsome but he will bite me
so NO! ^^

No more angel

2010-11-05T00:38:00.003+08:00

It's 12.39am in the late or may be early of the day

I am tired and yet

I am having an insomnia

Thinking what am I doing and why I am doing that

I alway do something that obviously I will regret immediately

even I don't wish to

Tonight, all the way back from PJ

I did something really bad to someone on the spot I viewed my home in fb

I didn't consider any second and I just press that never reverse button

and now

I think I should give myself an answer

stop my heart from asking it

Ming! Is time to face the reality

u aren't that strong

u can't beg this weight of burden

stop pretend or try to be an innocent angel in front of people

which u aren't

accept the fact that u had the wrong decision

since someone is doing something against u and make u dislike

since someone doesn't need ur concern

since the someone try to make u ignore him or hated him

just go ahead

let's the feeling flows

the someone is ought to have his freedom and stop seeing u as the headache stone

therefore

u might STOP pretending the little angel that believe there is still friendship

be a real person ming

be a REAL u

let's release the feeling that tied in ur heart

no more angel

neither devil

I am seriously tired

I tried my best

It turns out to be like this

so, follow it

give me a week

I will become a total stranger in front of u

for the rest of ur life

as u wished

Poem

2010-11-01T23:21:00.004+08:00

This is a poem I saw in the book my boss given to me:

I wish I were ... ...

Big enough, honestly, to admit all my shortcomings;

Brilliant enough to accept praise without making it arrogant;

Tall enough to tower above deceit;

Strong enough to welcome criticism;

Compassionate enough to understand human frailties;

Wise enough to recognize mistakes;

Humble enough to appreciate greatness;

Staunch enough to stand by friends;

Human enough to be thoughtful of neighbors;

And righteous enough to be devoted to the love of Buddha.

2010-10-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

2010-10-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

People who understand me know that I would not tears in front of others.

Once I tears, that's it, we are in the end of the story.

While I was driving alone at 9 something in the night,

I was thinking about the pain I suffered.

Why I am the one who get hurt by you

Even I tried my best to compensate the wound I caused to u.

I was thinking to hurt u back

as I am a scorpion

I wanted u to know that if I decide to fight

I will more cruel than u thought I am

because I am deemed to be a scorpion

without love, left hates

However,

I looked back to the sentences I prepared for exhibition

realised that that was all about karma

I am the one who wound u

because u owed me before

I am the one who get hurt by u

because I owed u more

so, let's just stop

I know we are not suitable to each other anymore

I know u understand it before than me just u couldn't accept

let's just use our own power to stop this karma turning around

controlling us to be sad

smile or frown, are just an action

why not we smile and become friends

since we all are born for waiting the death

let's just enjoy before we go to another next time

I do appreciate all of us

I do appreciate what have u changed me

Be, for the last time

I love you

I am here to say 'goodbye' to our love

and say 'hi' to our friendship

because I know that

being persistent will waste our time

and of course our life

and lastly

Thank you for bringing me to Buddhist World

I will spread what I learnt to the World

2010-08-24T17:30:00.001+08:00

THE WORST DAY EVER!!!

The only word that CAN appear in my mind is

FUCK!!!!

2010-08-23T14:59:00.002+08:00

Yup!!

We are BACK to college

It's mean we are going to study, play, eat and sleep again XD

This term our class added in another class, which mean

our class become march and august 2009 intake plus january 2010 intake

Oh, god!!

As what lecturer said, it is a BIG class

The whole year intake students are in this class! *crazy*

Anyway, gonna start to take it serious!

Can't rely on luck every time when you don't know when the luck might leave you =P

So, Gambatte Ming!!

As dad said,

"There's no impossible to Penang's people!!"

2010-08-11T10:33:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was fun, n should storage this day in my mind and blog of course. But, I am LAZY!!

So, watch this =)

Do enjoy XD

2010-08-04T20:52:00.005+08:00

Today is a BIG day~

What is that?

My Be's birthday?? Just passed month ago

My birthday? You have to wait my dear~

Graduated?? Errr, few more years

Become a lawyer? Idiot!! You not even graduate!!

Then what???

Is ...

...

Of course is my dearest buddy, old friends, classmates, schoolmates, girl, girlfriend, best friends, friends and whatever names of the love relationship that you can think, Ree Lee the King'S 20th BIRTHDAY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!!!!

2010-08-02T19:23:00.005+08:00

REAL HOLIDAYS ARRIVED!!!

BOO!!!

to meet you ♥

2010-07-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

Addicted to it!!!!

Mommy's tumor operation

2010-07-18T23:11:00.005+08:00

my mom had an tumor operation the past Friday.

when I reached GMC hospital, I was late, so I couldn't talk to her before she went in.

My dad and I were waiting outside the operation room.

After 2 hours, my dad had to work but my mom still haven't come out.

So, I waited outside the room alone.

Look forward the corridor, my mom was in there,

just behind the door, but I can't see her,

the feeling of fear suddenly appear,

I scare

I scare I lost her and I scare I not able to talk to her.

Listening music and waiting alone,

every time had bed been pulled out from tat door,

I ran quickly there,

but is not my mom.

After 2 hours, finally I saw my mom been pulled out from that room,

she smiled to me with energy-less

I said,

"dad is coming"

and she smiled again then slept back.

Thanks Buddha!!

The feeling for waiting alone outside the operation room isn't good!!

I hope it will not happen to me again,

ill please get away from my family, friends and love one!!

My Be Big Day!!

2010-07-18T22:07:00.005+08:00

I wrote this weeks ago ^^

02.07.2010

Actually I expected to drive down PJ alone although I did dream that there are possibility someone suddenly appear to accompany me, such like Reelee; may be she suddenly come back? Okay, impossible. However, I don’t expect I will receive a message at the night before I drove down PJ from Miss Cassandra Tan Wei Yuen who just came back from Australia saying that she’s going to follow my car to KL instead of her cousin’s car for a purpose of visit to an exhibition.

Did some catch up with her along the journey, and we reach my Be’s house at 2.30pm, hmmm, I used 4 hours to reach PJ. Play with Sean Boy while waiting my Be to prepare himself and then we start our discovery to Setapak hunt for Reelee the King.

Usually people used half an hour to reach Setapak from Kepong. The greatest us used 1 and a half hour *clap clap, bravo*, at least my Be learnt some new road. We reach Shuphooi before we met Reelee. Visit her house, know a friend, Robin who also one of my housemate’s friend, then we decided to hunt for food before Kim Sheng, Lee’s bf join us after his work. However, traffic jam makes us decided to wait Sheng at Dataran Merdeka until he finish his work. While waiting, we started my 80 cents game; although my Be don’t want to play with me, my friends seem excited to this game. Picked up him and continue with massive jam, we were laughing all the way, can’t believe it is the very first time they meet my Be, except Lee. Luckily is CRV not ViVa, that’s mean is auto, or else my Be’s leg …

Our plan is stop at my hostel, but we were extremely hungry so we chose to stop at Jaya One, Kimchiharu to have our dinner first. *yum yum* After dinner, another massive traffic jam and I received a call from Egg that inform me there’s nobody in my hostel so I can’t stay there at the particular night. So, we decided to go Desa Parkcity. We have so much fun there, play the so-called adult playground and climb here run there, remind us the time when we were still enjoy being a Rangers. Melody reach there by her own but she couldn’t find us in the park. So, I and Caca went to search for her, and we found her in 7-Eleven with hand phone charging by using the shop worker’s charger. > <>

Then, we played, shouted, and ran, climbed, flied and fainted. Headed to Curry House to have supper then Melody said she will take care of Caca and we sent the King couple back to their hostel. On the way back Be’s house, Dong! another day, the Big Day, so, pressie on Be’s hands. Lost again because Be wanted to try new road. Reach his house, sleep like pig, and dream like heaven.

*the pressie*

03.07.2010 *the BIG day* ^^

We both woke up at 10, his family already out for breakfast, didn’t meet them, felt sorry because didn’t greet them. Anyway, is Be’s Big Day and he wanted to celebrate with his bbf, Egg. Dress up, reach my hostel, dress up again, and then out to celebrate with Egg, Jyulia and Peng. First, KimGary as brunch, talked about something children not allowed then headed to their favourite place, RedBox. Enjoy singing with full of meal on the table, ate like pig and stomach like pregnant.

A delicious cake sent in and sang “Happy Birthday to You”. We couldn’t finish the meal at last so bungkuskannya. Then Daiso and MayBank, then hostel again because Peng said want to swim. Swim with Jyu, Peng and Be. Be still learning how to swim > <. Clean up (the happiest moment is when Be help me to dry up my hair *v*) then McD, meeting for KDUBSC and supper.

04.07.2010

Woke up quite late and wait Be to fetch me, going to back his hometown today. Heated up the meal we brought back yesterday as breakfast, then we headed to Ikea. I bought my mirror and curtain then we started our journey back to Gerik. Reach in the evening, went dinner with his parents after shower. Met his bff, JiaXin, who has tough attitude and beautiful eyes.

05.07.2010

Back Penang by using new road after breakfast with his father. His parents gave me 2 big fishes. Reach at noon; lost in Butterworth so at last we reach Penang Island by ferry, I can remember the last time I by ferry with car, I was just at the kindergarten’s age. Be wishes to visit ShuXuan but I was too pek chek, so we didn’t go down, just pass through, sorry Be, I know I acted like child. Reach my house; say hi to my Black and ChowChow. Drop my stuff, met my bro and sis in law while we going out. Found TuneHotel, check in, shower, then headed to Gurney to save our pity crying stomach. I forgot there’s no Winter Warmer in KL, so this is the very first time Be step in, happy that he loves it. Shop after lunch, I forced Be to buy T-shirts because I am freezing and I wanted to wear his long sleeve. Still early, so I brought Be to Paradise beach, watching people play those nice water game. Sent Be back to hotel to meet his friend after wander. Before I can reach my house, Be phoned and told me my IC is with him, drove back to take again. Then, home, dinner with family, Nitex.

*happy ^^*

06.07.2010

Woke up early and reach Be’s hotel at 6. Wait him to wake up. Planned to wake him up at 7.30am so that we can have our breakfast together, but is really a hard job to wake him up. He woke up at 8 and we left hotel after 20 minutes. I need to work at 9 so I straight away sent Be to Jetty and I rushed to 7-Eleven to buy my bread then work. Be reach Gerik at 12.

Boss's house warming

2010-07-13T23:31:00.004+08:00

Opps, is my boss's house warming.

I bought a little lamp for him and my teacher too. I fixed the lamp myself!! *proud*

I also bought a mouse pad for the aunty, as farewell present, sorry to Ivan, the intern friend, I don't know what should I buy for you, so ... sorry~

Other than that, finally I found the mask that Be always begging for.

I bought 2, Be, which 1 u prefer?

I think the kitty's mouth suit u, cute what~

2010-07-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

原来面对家庭问题，你真的很自私

我只是想你安慰我

一通电话很为难你

没关系

至少信息是安慰的语气

至少不是只为自己想

可是你一样也没做到

你要我怎样依靠你

我知道你很爱你的家人

你也希望我关心你的家人

那难道我的家人不是人吗？

不需要关心吗？

是你教我要很爱家人

是你教我家人是不能取代的

在自打嘴巴吗？

孤儿院的小孩你都关心

那是我的妈妈

他可能有生命危险

你却只想到自己

展览会

你真自私，真冷血

原来关心"朋友"的家人是可以免的!

我记住了

2010-06-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

这一个月的分离，我真的有点不习惯，好寂寞，好没有安全感，生病的时间也加长了，Be说我们应该练习的，因为以后要分离的可是几个月，开始时我想这是对的，不然会很痛苦!

现在，我想这是不对的，既然过后要分开这么久，我们就不应该拿这些仅有剩下的时间来练习，浪费我们能相聚的时间，分开练习我们仅有能在一起的时间，不值得，很浪费!!

我们应该珍惜每一分每一秒能在一起，能相聚的时间，以后分开是痛苦，至少我们有很多很多美好的回忆，让我们的嘴角在哭泣时上扬啊!! 对不对Be?

所以，这一年我粘定你了，我要有很多很多美好的回忆让我在英国想念可爱的你，让我更爱你!!

怕以后会很痛苦? 就痛吧，我们自己选择要开始的，我们自己选择的路，的未来，自己选择为对方守候的，不是吗? 所以不能反悔! 反悔的是小狗~

不管怎样一定会痛的，不管我们现在有没有时常见，一定会一样痛的，因为我们相爱! 不痛就不爱了，对不? 所以你要为我痛吗??

Blog I type last week~

2010-06-27T19:19:00.003+08:00

Due to my laziness, the blogger me stop blogging for about few weeks, sorry, you know I am lazy right? >3<

There is nothing special during my so-called holidays at Penang. As I mentioned in last post, I am a new born OL. However, I am a weirdo among the OLs. I don’t like to make up although my firm may be needed me to do so. First week I was fully make up, including eyes, cheek and mouth. I seriously don’t like to do that, it makes me can’t rub my nose and eyes randomly. Second week, I start to skip eye shadow and blush, but still nothing different. Till the third week, I got sick, serious illness that caused me take few days MC to rest at home and unable to talk. When I get back to work, I just put eyeliner and mascara, the next day only mascara and today … … I put NOTHING. Yesterday my teacher asked me why my face so unhealthy, I told her because I am still sick and my boss used to ask me ‘are you ok?’ every afternoon after he woke up. Finally I have excuse to skip make up! I can tell them I make up, but my face still not in good condition. {Rule 1: Best lawyers are good in LIES!}

Let’s talk about my working environment. Actually this firm was in the middle of town and the building is considered as one of those old-fashion shop lots. Our firm at second floor and you will probably can’t find us if you not from Penang. Our firm not as huge as others but is warm and have everything a firm needed. In here, we have a old cute clock always use its ‘dong dong’ sound to warn me it’s time to work, wake up worm and to rush us in papers every 30 minutes. (I love to count the number of it’s “dong dong”, then I will know the time =D) My boss was a journalist before he became a lawyer, so in our office, there are lots of pictures about how’s Penang and Penang Courts looks. My boss loves to keep some wines and antiques too. My boss and teacher treated this firm as their own house; there are beds, sofa, television, stove and bla bla bla. There is a self-portrait of my boss at the wall in front of our tables, although he always hiding in his room but I always have the feeling that he’s watching us. Hmm, may be there is a CCTV on one of his eye, who’s know? Whatever, I love to work here.

Opps, forget to mention my ill. Actually I didn’t know the name, just something will grow in your throat if you getting weak. That’s all for my description of my illness. {Rule 2: SKIP what can skip and IGNORE what you lazy to think}

A little fighting while I was ill with my Be because of my floating mood, SORRY, I know you’re not feeling well too, but at least you didn’t kill me nor kick my ass =X
Summary for entertainment, I ate sushi king twice in this week since me and Be prefer to eat sakae sushi in PJ, so I m ok with it. No outing with friends since I was sick and lazy, but I did watch ‘Karate Kid’ with family, and it’s AWESOME but the girl not pretty~

Shopping with mommy after few years, and realized that she’s a serious shopaholic. So as you guess, she has a shopaholic daughter, that’s me =) I bought few working blouses and dress. Oh, clothes that I bought from website reach my home, cotton not as good as I expected but still acceptable, pattern a little bit changed but still acceptable BUT I think I won’t buy from it again {Rule 3: Lawyer’s words do not belief in 100 %, 99.9% perhaps?}

2010-06-06T13:24:00.003+08:00

伤痕，伤痕，伤过必留痕

wound, scar, wound, scar, wound will leave scar.

NO! I am not emo, then how about this picture?

Okay, I captured it myself, from my shoulder, but what is it??

Is my beloved nephew, HE BITE ME!!!

PAIN!!

My first internship

2010-06-05T23:05:00.004+08:00

The very first time I knew the feeling of being an OL (office lady). Everyday, woke up at 7, shower, dress up, make up and have breakfast. Went out from house at 8.15am sharp. A little jam at highway as usual and reach office at 8.45am. Start work at 8.50am of course. The first two days I felt tired,I guess is because of my eyes, as you know, I left only an eyes can see, so I felt dizzy and sleepy after work. But, I felt better at the third day, I think my eyes already used to it.

My job basically is helping my lawyer teacher to check some paper works, type & send some letters, arrange some files and of course make friend with Photostat machine, just like what a clerk did. However, me this clerk learnt lots from my lawyer teacher and lawyer boss as well as the Geng clerk aunty. Opps, not to forget an intern boy who work as part time. My boss seems like semi-retired but he is knowledgeable, he taught me some steps in being a lawyer and student as well which will be very useful in future. The lawyer teacher told me her experience and taught me to choose RIGHT people to help. The aunty more geng, she worked in law firm already 30 years, she didn't have any cert but she knew all the procedures in law and she also help clients make will. WOO!

My colleagues are nice and sweet, teacher teaches me everything she learnt, boss is strict and fierce to clients but is nice to us. Happy!! The time rush but useful, me tired but enjoy!! *Start forgetting what I've been done in this week*

2010-05-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is Wesak Day!! Day that Buddha born to this planet. My Be is busy for last few days to help his Buddhist club to decorate for this great big day.

Everyone is holiday tomorrow, include my Nee. Oh god, is time to take care her again due to my grandma is going to Siam for a trip.

Sooner or later I will follow my aunt who is sincere buddhist to pray, Nee will go along too. ><>

Leo's

2010-05-21T13:36:00.002+08:00

I am such a crazy freak this few days, or maybe pig? What I did during this few days were sleep, eat, lappie, sleep, eat , lappie ... Errr

Our face currently

However, we do feel good to say that HOLIDAYS arrived!!

Move out from this hostel hat we stayed for five months before tomorrow, and gonna move to a nice place although it is expensive. I think I really should learn to cook to save expense and I want to cook for my be too ♥

Ahhh! Need to tie my stomach tightly d!!

I will be in Penang from June until August, haiz,not gonna meet my be for such a long time, will miss you very very much and promise will celebrate your birthday with you!!

2010-05-19T04:09:00.003+08:00

Love is just about a pair of shoes

Future road is depends on both of them

Walk or Stop?!

2010-05-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

首先，妈咪，生日快乐!!

你女儿没用到要用简讯来跟你说，而且不知道你会不会看

对不起

爸妈，我想我错了，后悔了

应该听你们的话的

我好想你们

好想家

至少它是我永远的保护城

我可以不用伪装

我可以是我

我的房间有足够的乐趣让我呆一个星期不出来

可以哭可以笑可以发疯

出来见到的也是最最亲爱的家人

我是很幸福的

我好想好想你们

离开家

我不是大小姐了

我不是小女儿了

我什么都不是

不能哭不能笑

不能发脾气

我快不是我了

但我还是得改

不然社会不要了

爸妈的心血就没了

该长大了

但长大好辛苦

好难过

2010-05-12T22:48:00.001+08:00

我只想要你哄我

Oh, YEAH!!

2010-05-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

Oh, Yeah!!

I am going to meet my Be lo!!!

Miss him so much!! Muakz

2010-04-27T01:47:00.002+08:00

从没这么紧张，不安，怕输过

无形的压力一直过来

不能睡发恶梦

大考试都没有这种感觉

而这只是一个让我们能迈入第二年的考试

我却怕得跟老鼠一样

难看死了

满脑子里都是考试

但拿起书又头疼

想睡

闭起眼睛想睡

却又想起书

睡不着

快死了!!

今夜又如往常般失眠了

去年的同学陪我搞笑度过

谢谢!! Plurk 万岁!!

很开心

暂时忘了压力

但还是睡不着

2010-04-24T02:04:00.002+08:00

突然好想你

你不在这里

分享我的快乐和甜蜜

突然好想你

突然想起了回忆

嘴角都是想你的甜蜜

无助

2010-04-22T13:39:00.006+08:00

我又做了一个奇怪的梦，梦里是我最不想发生的事，但我相信现实中不会发生的。 =)

梦里，我发现了他单独跟一个女生出去很多次又没告诉我，有一天他驾着我的车载着一个女生和一堆朋友来我家，当我上厕所时，那女生说要走，他等也不等，头也不回的驾着我的车走了，也不管我在后面哭，丢手机。那种感觉，真的很不好受，我不想要再有了。感觉很无助，世界末日一样，从此我就一个人了，没有人在身边，没有人帮你，也没有人会在乎你了。但我知道我的她不会像梦里一样的，梦都是相反地!!!

My house new pet~ XD

2010-04-21T22:14:00.002+08:00

Colorful little crab ... These are their biggest size, male crab has one huge crab claw and one tiny however, the female has both tiny~

I considered it as the most beautiful among those.

Yuan Lai

2010-04-20T01:30:00.003+08:00

I came back Penang during my study break to study for my final on May. However, I am not really can concentrate in my house my room. I love to walk out my room and walk around my house, open my fridge even I know I can find nothing in there. While I staying in my room , I feel sleepy and start rolling on my bed. If I didn't sleep, I feel headache and faint. I was wondering what happen am I??!!

I decided to finish some revision before tomorrow morning but when I step in my room, I start feel sleepy, I was guessing may be is my air con too comfortable for me. So, I switch it off. Then, I done what I had planned! Now I know! I can only switch on my air con when I wish to sleep because in my room, my air con and my lovely bed make me feel relax and sleepy~

So, should I blame them too comfortable? Nah, I should blame myself too boneless.

2010-04-12T14:42:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to do my tutorial questions!

I don't know how to short-formed the long answer!

I don't know whether I can pass in my contract paper!

I don't know whether I have enough time in my criminal paper!

I don't know how to face the exam papers!

Save me GOD!!

2010-04-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

I wish I am not missing you!

Hmmm, I think lots nowadays, may be useless for everything but ... just think about it la. I seem like very to fall into emo nowadays, think about this and that then ... SHIT ... feel like crying out, then how? No place for me to shout or cry, GRRR!! I need to be alone!!! I guess one day, I gonna throw away everything and lock myself in a room for few days!!! Can't you just love what you have now? No, why no? I don't know!!

Why am I alway SICK???!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

男友应该做的

2010-04-06T19:10:00.002+08:00

1.向新朋友介绍女友时，请搂着她的腰，而不是站在一旁用手指点。

2.在街上遇见美女凝视时间不超过5秒，并迅速指出那位美女与她相比较的美中不足。(X)

3.如果她做错了事，心里已经很难过，请主动承担起你应该甚至不应该承担的责任吧。(X)

4.听女友话的男人才会有出息，所以，你要乖乖听她的话。

5.她可以欺负你，但你绝对不可以欺负她，因为她虽然欺负你，但是每次有什么好东西，她第一个想到的就是你!

6.要是她朝你哭，你要不厌其烦地哄她，直到她破涕为笑!

7.把她的照片帖到钱包，手机……一切经常看到的地方。

8.离开她绝对不超过十天以上

9.在她的朋友面前，希望你可以表现得比平时更疼爱她和紧张她的样子。

10.大男人不表示霸道.

11.温柔不等于没主见。

12.潇洒不等于没交代

13.不要老是在我问她“去那里比较好”，“吃什么”等等的时候说“随便”，这不等于是你在迁就她，只表示你没有心思搭理她.

14.要经常对她说“我爱你”，否则她会假设你不爱她

15永远不要在公众场合对她呼呼吼吼又或是撇下她一人。

16.她做错事情的时候教训她不要紧，最重要的是在那之后要哄她。

17.发脾气时不要不理她，不要给时间她让她冷静，其实她完全不需要时间冷静。

18.可以陪自己的朋友，但一定要重色轻友。

19.她看动画片，你不但不准笑话她，还要跟她一起看。

20.在她想你时，争分夺秒地挤出时间与她约会

21.看她的眼神无比专注。

22.话的语气情深意长。

23.能做到客观的得看到其它优秀的女孩，但主观认为她才是最好的

24.有女孩和你说话，你要拉着她的手，如果她恰巧不在旁边，那么请你跟她们保持距离。

25.过马路的时候牵着她的手。

26.要懂得珍惜和她在一起的每分钟。

27.就算再忙，每天都不忘打一个问候的电话

28. 要常常唱情歌给她听。(X)

29.两个人都有发火的权利，但不能同一天, 如果那一天她发火了，那你就不可以发火了。

30.女友生活中不顺心，你要循循善诱、帮忙分析，提出建设性方案若干

31.要非常爱你的女友---她，坚决拥护女友的决定，服从女友的领导. (X)

32.留意其它女生不得超过5秒钟，看同一女生累计不得超过5次。

33.即使全世界的人都不相信她，你也要无条件相信她。因为她也会同样对你。

34.她穿了好看的衣服，你要衷心赞美。

35.严禁在女士(3岁－80岁)面前耍贫，放电。若有违反，视情节严重程度，由女友从严、从快进行严厉打击.任何人、任何形式的狡辩，抵赖都将按妨碍司法公正论处。

36.不抽烟。一经发现立即开除。

37.与女友吵架每次陈述不得超过3分钟(含)，音量不得超过20分贝(含)。

38.要加强锻炼，强健身体,一口气抱她上到五楼. (X)

39.在她心情遭透，蛮横发脾气的时候，抱抱她，而不是和她理论。

40.希望不会出现手机没电而她又没有其它办法联系到你的现象，如果能频频主动打电话告诉她“我想你了”并随时汇行踪则更好。

41.她身上有很多缺点，她已经够苦恼了，请不必随时向她提醒。

42.女友不讲理是撒娇而不是撒野。

43.她所有的事情都好想跟你分享、虽然你不一定会明白但是希望你会装做你在听。

44.女友送的东西一定要天天带在身边

45.最重要的一点：要永远认为女友是对的。因为...她是最爱你!!

P.S. （X）的，本人觉得太做作了，所以应该不必吧 >0<