and yea, It happened, again~ Y^Y

Wonderful!

After so long, I decided to let my heart locked again!

It's been so long I use it and didn't give it a rest

Now,

for the sake of my future,

for the sake of my health,

for the sake of my feeling,

for the sake of my family,

for the sake of not hurting anyone,

for the sake of not being hurt,

I locked it again.

When will I let it function again?

This ... I would say :"till the day it feel it worth to"

This of course not for my family and neither to my friends

I am tired to be someone's someone

I should be just MYSELF

It's indeed my fault

I should have think it properly

I love my ex roommate!

This two times! She warned me a lot

I will listen to you next time I PROMISE

I know, I am a big trouble,

even my beloved parents said that,

what I choose to do would totally surprise them,

out of their expect and of course to my friends as well.

Good or Bad? depends~

I am selfish,

I am greedy,

I am weird,

I am who I am.

I can say there is never a person can change me if I don't want to,

even my family.

I rather a friend hates me or back stab me than I go after her like a puppy

That just makes her not even call as a "friend" to me

A bit go wrong way =='''

What I am trying to say is

"don't judge a book by its cover"

the quotation above I used to feel that it is for those childish kids,

to prove that they are cool and everything they done is not their fault and its under their control

However, now I feel I just need it to express

although I added something I feel childish as well

"don't judge a book by its cover and expect it to be something you thought of which in fact it is nothing of what you thought at the first place"

yea, it came like this.

Overall, It is not FULLY my fault

I m wrong as well as you

Now, my goal is

1. Finish degree with flying colours *this is a MUST*

2. Further my studies until I can officially work

3. Earn more money to take care of my parents, my grandparents, my siblings, my nieces and my DOG's future.

4. I want to be someone independent enough to hold the world by my own hands

How to decide?

Since there are possibility that it would happen again

how I gonna let it hurt you again?

Is not like I don't know you

I know you well, this is why I am so hard to make decision

Totally not in study mode!

I just LOVE to be "ME"

now, not only my "ME"

I am enjoying being your "ME" too

Love u so much of course

and I miss you!

That's my B

n This is ME!

They are us recently, preparing our weapon to fight on the REAL war!

Our friendnemy is of course our Y2 exam!!

So everyday you would probably see us hanging around in Fo Xue Yuan~

What a wonderful month~

*should I say "with love"??*

Yea, probably when we gone through~

MUAKZ!!

Puppies!

Chow Chow was pregnant for the past 2 months and my whole family did not notice it, even me, the one that always shower for her! ridiculous isn't it??

My brother woke me up from my lovely nap and told me my chow chow get raped, my first reaction was "she always get raped~" and the next second, my brother told me that when he reach home, what he saw was blood and a puppy rolling on floor, he was shocked! And yes! 4 puppies came to this world in this meaningful day 03042011. Why is it meaningful? because they gave birth when I was cooking "yi" ^^

I was so "gan cheong", I thought my dog don't know how to give birth and I some more ask my brother send her to hospital, and nevertheless, my brother ignored me. ==''' However, this breaks the statement that my dog is a lesbian and she cannot pregnant ( I sent her to intercourse with other male dogs before but failed to pregnant). Maybe she still les?? because she get raped, not purposely go seduce male dogs perhaps? haha

Fortunately, she was fine after give birth to the 4 puppies which I already give them names now. 1st white male puppy is Aussie, 2nd black male puppy is Bugsy, 3rd black female puppy is Chiko and the last white male is Doodle. ABCD so cute!!! Chow Chow is weak, I should cook birdnest for her perhaps?? ^^

Go back next week just to see them, although I promise my parents won't go back until mid of April. ^^P Hope to see them in real but not 3G! will post up photos probably ^^ *HAPPY*!!!