12.10.2012

Today, can be consider as a happy day *hurray*

Except the body review which I waited for more than 2 hours, everything is just fine ^^ a good way to welcome my sweet hardworking weekend.

I am a  person that don't know how to express things well. This makes me lost a few friends. But, today I am very very brave! haha I spoke to someone that I wanted to be her friend since I first met her! She is always my friend, but not very close, but she is that kind of girl that I wanted to be a close friend with her and share my daily story with her. Due to some matter, I always don't dare to move a step forward. Today, I am very happy! Because I started to chat with her like a friend, like MY friend ^^ and she still as nice as I knew ^^ We have a long chat and hmm~ just so nice that I couldn't describe.

And I think since I was very brave, God gave me a compliment by telling another boy friend that I liked to chat with start a conversation with me! He is a happy and cute guy who have a very good personality. Even he has been through some hard time last month but he still move on as usual. I really respect his spirit. Have a nice talk with him. hehe. He told me that he changed his job and gonna start a new working environment, wish me best of luck! and the most important thing is! He and his gf are getting nearer to each other, I am so happy for them! hehe

I am very happy ^^ I am very lucky today! No, I always been lucky! I have best parents! Best friends! and Best bf in the world!

I am just being HYPER now! but I really feel thousand times happier than past few weeks! Tomorrow will be better I KNOW IT ^^

the photo is the room that I had so much memory ^^

10.10.2012

今天，我可爱的老板和公司里那架温柔的电脑快把我给逼疯了。如山的文件已经将我淹没，他还拼了命的给我往上叠。我不是一个只做容易工的职员，相反地，我有点工作狂的倾向，我喜欢把工作以最快的速度做完，尽量不把它留到明天。这导致我永远有做不完的工，才第二个星期，我可爱的老板就将所有"urgent"的文件往我这里搁。我还是学徒啊，还是一个你underpaid的学徒。好多不会做的都硬着头皮做。

所里的每个人都有资格叫我帮他们，老板也说了，叫我能帮就帮，加上我那不会拒绝人的性格，彻彻底底把我逼得快崩溃了。老板一边喊着"faster faster, this is very very urgent",我那温柔的电脑却慢条斯理的漫步着。我也很urgent啊! 我电脑不urgent我能怎么办？我都替它的性命紧张了，深怕老板一个不如意就把它给砸了。况且，那个urgent的又不是我的文件，欲哭无泪啊!

搞到最后自己的反而只做了一半，大家都快快乐乐回家了，我还在努力。老板倒好，连管家的工也归我了，叫我帮他安排他家的琐事，我自己的私事都一个头两个大了，你放过我吧，我可爱的老板。

一直以为办公室的人都很融洽，但今天却听到了坏话，我一直都不会管理我的social life，所以就一笑置之，不要扯到我就好了。

回到家，看着我的课本，决定了，带我可怜的狗去晃晃，放它回来后，压力还在，我卯起来，在爸妈的错愕下，在我家地区狂跑了两圈，压力没了，但因为两个月没跑了，所以腿好像也报销了。但至少开心了，又可以开始拼命，开始温书了。加油啊!

话

今天放工回家驾着车时，听着MyFM 四通八达。今天的来宾是一个我不知道长相的女歌手，叫Gem邓紫棋。她说了一番话，我大概忘了一半吧，但我知道她说的经历和她学会的东西，很让我佩服。

我想记下来所以就写部落格了。她说:" 难过，痛苦，不开心，就像我们的伤口一样，你以为贴了一块胶布就没事了，但有一天你打开时，却发现它腐烂了，严重了。我们一味的逃避，解决不了问题，我们只是对它视而不见，但有一天我们被逼得直视它时，它可能已经比原先的还要严重了。只有面对问题，努力解决，才是对自己最好的方法。当你度过了，回头时，会发现，都过去了，不会世界末日了。将来的问题也会努力勇敢的解决。"

很喜欢她说的比喻，才去看了她的长相 >< 我很坏! lol

Look what I have done for my life... I'm in a mess. My life is in a mess...

I once thought I am brave, I once thought I can handle everything, I once thought I am the "me" that I wanted to be. This month... everything just screwed up. I never thought everything will just leave so easily. It's like never even happen... everything was just my imagination? I put myself in a lose-lose situation. I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong. Seems like I purposely force myself to a corner, a corner that I can't breathe like I used to be.  Everyday I am trying to tell myself it will be a better day, a happy day. Every nights before I sleep, I tell myself it will be fine tomorrow... But, I am not, I am pretending, I hate the mask on my face but I dare not pull it down.

He completed me. I am not brave without him. I've already used to the time when I knew he will always be with me, love me like no one did. I know he's having a hard time. I know what I can do is accompany him silently, without giving any trouble.

I just wish everything will be fine.. Blog is always my best friend to share ^^

It's time for some crap?

In this age, you are standing in an awkward situation. Friends starting to attend graduation, some are already having their interviews and although most of the friends are still struggling with their school works, everyone nevertheless hope to achieve something in our own life in this age.

At the beginning of this year, I thought I would have a life as I used to have, and of course, add on a little cute boyfriend with a lovely life. Hmm, however, life do not always follow what you have planned to go, because, you will never grow if they did. My health and some society problems have forced me to choose a harder way to improve myself. I know I have to be tough and brave enough to accept every single challenge that this society give to me. If I can't stand still and get a seat in this society, I then will never grow and face the problem myself.

Long-distance study is not a tough mission. All you have to do is manage your timetable yourself and follow it without a doubt. However, what I am worry is, I never have a discipline life nor a discipline attitude since I was born. Hmm, this obviously will increase the hardness if I still holding the same attitude. It's time to change huh...

To improve my poor English, I got myself an internship. Haha, I know I am bringing myself to hell. Forcing myself to grow up in one night. I want a busy life, useful life. The past 2 months were too relaxing and my lazybones are growing bigger. So, I must use some harsh matter to help it lose some weight. Anyway, I just want to get myself a CLP cert and a wonderful lovely life as I used to have. I believe tasting the suffer will make you appreciate the little happiness that you used to forget.

Hmm, my English really going downward compared to my previous crap. England is really a place for me to learn. It's only 2 months and my English back to the basic level. Maybe working in a firm will got another reward - improve my English again!

Or I shall write more blogs, since I always use it to improve my English.

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