Dream

The story starts with Jennifer’s body which I still haven’t watch it. I am watching the movie and the feeling is like I am in there. However, I guess my “Jennifer’s body” is different from yours, because I haven’t watch yet. There is in a jail, and I saw all guys in the class are listening lecture and girls are preparing to clean the class, and I saw Meg*n Fox (her). She is pretty, yeay. In the movie, the transformer’s guy (him) who I don’t know his name was staring at her while she is cleaning. The screen then jump to a burning box. I saw her throwing paper money in and what she said u know?? She said:” Why my body still can’t fully burn, I burn it before and now it still can’t fully spoil, I have not enough paper to let it burn already.” And her face had a lots of holes and blood when she turn around. *shit*

Then, he met her at the corner and start chit chatting. She then becomes I, I am not meaning the face, and I mean my dream starts changing. When we walk into class, I realized that my seat has another girl sitting, so I sit at the back. While the class is going on, I saw a girl suddenly stand up and walk to another girl and bite her. Whole class shouts and run. I remember I run not that fast and Peng is behind me so I ask her push me. There is so many stairs and we jump down from stairs. At last, I felt that the “thingy” is chasing me not others, because it called a girl to chase and I run away from the people alone, then the girl chasing me. The venue is then change to my primary school. The “thingy” is staring at me from the roof. *wth*

I run all the way to canteen and hide in the middle of people, the girl can’t find me, and then behind me a fairy suddenly appear. It says it will protect me and suddenly all the students become that type of “thingy” and just left a few are not only. All keep chasing me, and … that bohyeong-ness fairy. *walao* (Say want protect me at last also same same get chase by that “thingy”) I then climb up table and run from one to another until no more table so I jump down and I thought will get bite but in that moment only I realized that fairy got wings, can fly, it caught me. *yeay* I start to feel that this fairy can be trusted, and it not really that boh yong, I regret I have this thought next second. That really is idiot fairy, it get bitten and already is one of those “thingy”, it try to bite me but I struggle and jump down from it. *shit* I thought it is come to save me from the danger, but at last ... *speechless*!!!

I run, I hide, all useless, they still can find me. At last I saw a few students standing in front a notice board and I run there and change my clothes, the “thingy” don’t know why can’t recognize me, and I walk away from them secretly (but acting nomal between them) then I wake.

The conclusion is I keep running and hiding. I was gasping while I wake up and tired. ( Hami lai??)

My be also have such dream at the same time, but he more yeng, he said he is inspector, then chase by others. But both of us were tired and gasping in the dream. Grrr

Another stupid bad dream!!

Yesterday night was the first night I can sleep without Peng within this few days, but ... I guess the God is kidding me. I thought I will have a nice sleep, at least sleep tight without dream, but He don't let me to do so. I have few dreams but the most serious dream was the one that makes me woke up with tears and shout as well.

Dream :

At first, I saw Ven and Egg came back and I opened door for them. They told me someone following them, they pretend the house beside us is our hostel and the next day, the house get robbed. Then, they tried another house again and the result was the same.

Then the dream flies to another day. Ven suddenly shout from outside and called us run away from our hostel because he saw someone breaking our gate door then he phoned 999 as well. However, the policemen unable to catch the him.

The next day, I was walking back from college alone and I open the gate door with control (since when I have the control I also don't know), then the door to enter my hostel. Suddenly there was a salesman enter from the gate door. I ask him why he enter then he ask me is it the renter in my hostel and i ask again why. he said he have something need to find her then I said she is not here. The man said OK then his eye look behind and I saw another man which is the man who enter our hostel the day before. I shout and quickly try to lock my door but don't know why the door just can't lock. Then I suddenly think that I should hide in my room cause my room have a extra lock. While I running up the stair, they enter house and chase me. Then before I enter my room, they got me!

I woke up and feel very insecure. Today is the day that everyone not beside me and I need to walk to college and back college alone. So, the dream is very scary for me. At last, I decide, follow Egg them to college at 11 and spent my day in library with my laptop and constitution law then wait them dismiss class at 6. This decision makes someone happy. Someone that can't accompany me this weekend! I hate u!! bluekz. .

say GAMBATTE to those joining mooting competition's people! You all are the best! Going to start soon. Count down-ing 3 2 1 ... GO!!

Grrr!!

I thought this week will be same like last week, everything is fine and normal but ... Peng left me alone here and back to Penang a whole long week. However, I thought there wouldn't affect me anything but!!! I can't sleep without her!! I don't dare to switch off light at night and I can't sleep with the light! Nobody accompany me, feel so lonely~

Next that happen to me is!!! That stupid Hao bought the back penang ticket in front me! Sia me?? I don't want. Bluekz. Because I really need catch up my studies. But, NOW, I regret d!! Cause I going to be alone the whole weekend! Others have their class on Fri and Sat. ISH! Eat alone, sing alone, walk alone, lying on bed alone, at home alone, at lab alone, at library alone, conclusion is everything ALONE!! GRRRRRR!!!!!

First time feel that run can't throw away my emotion. I ran lots today but useless. Tonight is just not my night. I spoiled my spec which just bought after cny. I hurt my feet and leg as well. I miss someone madly. I feel hurt. But, just HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL~

Currently at McD near OneU. Follow, erm, NO, considered force by 2 cutey funny idiots Ven and Egg go around to find McD since 1:05am I guess and we reach here almost 2 just because we lost AGAIN. haha. Finding road in the dark was scary but FUN! hee~

从小就喜欢人家摸摸我的头
这种喜欢到现在还是
我喜欢有人可以静静的摸摸我的头
像疼惜一样珍贵的东西般的抚摸
不经意的，自然的
充满爱意，充满幸福
让我安心，让我有安全感

我好怪!
最近发现原来我有那么多怪癖~
尤其在爱情方面
难怪有人坚持不下去
因为只要小小的一件事
我就会失去安全感
整个人就好像失了魂般
有谁受得了？？

黄慧敏 白痴!!!

今天情绪不知怎么了， 飘浮不定， 有点想哭， 可是没有原因，哭就有点奇怪了，就把它忍了。没有主题，只是闷，绯友就提议我写写，抒发情绪。

近日有时常出去，有照片，懒人我，懒得upload, 原谅原谅。

好想抱人，好像咬人，绯友又不给我咬! 过分!

槟城，星期四见~

累了，就会想很多东西，开始胡思乱想~

如果我累了，有人可以揹我，该有多好~
如果我倦了，有人可以扶着我，该有多好~
如果我不开心，有人可以借我肩膀，该有多好~
如果我需要安全感，有人可以给我抱，该有多好~
如果我想大哭，有人可以摸摸我的头，让我尽情地哭，该有多好~
我好想，好需要一个能让我放心停靠的港湾哦。。。

我知道这些很难有人给
至少我希望我的下一个港湾是适合的，幸福的，疼爱我的，聆听我也让我聆听他的，永远的，一生的~

Hello~

Finally I get my A-levels' result and I going to KL to continue my degree as I planned. This Saturday morning, my second brother will fetch me and my luggage to my hostel.

Actually this post I just want to release my stressful life this few days, because there is too rush from I get my result until my college open day. Just 5 days between them. I went down with my family and Peng before to search the location of colleges and compare them. At last, we choose KDU because of the environment and system. We like it. Of course the most important thing is we have friends study at there also, so can take care of us sometime may be.

Before I get my result, I mailed my documents to KDU, open some bank account such like bank Islam for ptptn loan and Ambank. I try to apply ptptn loan but the government doesn't reply me yet. Then, I start to collect things that need to bring there and my dad bought me a medium size travel bag.

After I get my result, 11/8, I booked bus tickets, took photo, copy documents, discuss what should bring with Woei, discuss fees and what I need to do next with my dad. 12/8, I went to KL again with Peng only because we need to find a hostel. we taught we were lucky because we just use 2 and a half hours to settle our register and found hostel with a nice environment. Although the first taxi driver cheated to us money, but the second taxi is a good person. We went to bus station bought tickets and straight back to Penang.

Something terrible happened! The owner regret, she said got a girl don't want to move out so we can't move it. What the *! Hello. We already say we are come from Penang k, now we going back only you tell, you want us sleep at roadside zit??!! Luckily we have THE BEST FRIENDS who give us some numbers so we can call from Penang and at last we found a hostel. But, first, we can't see our hostel's environment until we move in that day, it might be good or BAD; second, we need to live in a house with boys. Never mind la, they won't have any idea when they see my face, too ugly. wakakakax. SO NO WORRY.

Last but not least, Thanks to WOEI and FLARES!!! You guys help us a lot!! tQQQ~

I read through this plus listen my blog song, I se bu de! Feel like want to cry already. I love you family, Love you, grandma and love you friends especially all my girls. I gona miss miss miss plus infinity miss you all. MUAKZ~ (trillion times) My niece just told me:" I will miss you so much, GuGu~" in chinese.

Will you miss me??...

by2 - 不够成熟

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以后
离开
难道真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头
决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过
笑着和你挥挥手
...............
我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念你走以后
离开难道
真的是解脱
难道真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头
决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过
笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一刻
我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远

倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头
决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛
假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过
笑着和你挥挥手
...........