My precious

Been worrying the whole night since I got the message from dad. Although dad told me u guys are fine but I am really worry. The whole car condemned, and I really grateful that u guys are fine. Ce, skype with me to prove u r fine please, I know dad used to lie on me on things that would bring me down.Qin must be freaked out and crying non-stop I bet. I can see Nee is okay but looks tiring, you guys are awesome! SHERO in my heart!

How I wish my flight is tonight and I can fly back to you guys after 17 hours! I miss u...*hugs*

Luckily u r ok! Ce, I am so gonna hug u and squeeze ur fat! muakz

Time flies

Today is 16th December. I got 4 more days to reach my exam, 7 days to leave my dreamy room and 8 days to meet my love <3. Okay, just like what you seeing, I am totally in a stress-free situation. No No, a pretending to be stress-free situation. What am I talking about? Okay, Shut up!

Since I start my degree, my blog has become a place I will think of when I get hurt or when I am too boring, how pathetic it is...

Today I am here, because...okay,as usual, I am too boring and the essays are killing me. I was actually thinking about my essays, but after a few mins, mind turns to think about food, then Penang, then home,then people, then shopping mall... The moment I was back to reality, it's already 40 mins later. HOW GREAT!! Give myself a little rest to crap at here would probably clear my mind and a little getaway from those stupid essays.

I am so gonna play hard and do hard when I back to Penang. OH! not to forget EAT hard! 2 courseworks have to finish and pass up during early January, my BPTC application forms, My HO HO HO Merry Christmas and HA HA HA Happy New Year and my Gong Xi Fa Cai!!! Okay, too far...

Enough crap for today I think...

I thought of writing down some memories in Oxford as well as London and of course Scotland. But, I am too lazy my dear. Plus, NOW everyone got Facebook, look at the photos is better than your crap in the blog, what a great excuse for myself!!

Will decide again someday later, maybe a day when I am EXTREMELY ABSOLUTELY bored?? Probably.

Whatever~ this blog is just a link that I wanted to refer back my life when I get old. No ones care ><

To the future Ming, YES! You are really seriously boring and have to crap all these to make your life a little bit more interesting at this moment! 2011.12.16 20:53 UK time... during ur peak time (not to forget). PLEASE!don't slap your own forehead when u read back and please don't show it to ur children or grandchildren... SO SIA SUI!!

The smile you give me =)

I already used to the life that you greet me morning and good night before I go to bed and I greet you good night and sweet dream when I am going to have my dinner. First thing I do in the morning is read your line messages and the last thing I do before I go to dreamland is sending you a good night kiss. I don't dare to be too happy, I scare the angels will jealous and cut down my happiness but I can't control myself for smiling around like an idiot when I was thinking of you. =)

I should be in a very stress situation now, 2 courseworks due in 2 weeks time and an exam coming on next month. But, All I thought of this few days were my short "vacation" back to Penang. A sweet date with my family, friends and of course you <3. Like I told you, Although my ALM due date is tomorrow, opps, today, and I still left 2k words to go, but all I was thinking is you.

I <3 you

and don't worry, last minute is like my maxim, as long as I don't start my courseworks few hours before due, I am not in rush at all ^^ so, dad won't scold you because I will never get bad result due to that. *cross fingers*

朋友？

第几次了，到底要受多少次教训你才懂得?

别那么容易相信人

不管他说多相信你，多感激你

最后还是会被出卖的

别傻了

天真已经不存在了

大家只会觉得你单蠢

别再相信人了好吗?

那种痛，你受不起的。。。

听话了，不要了

还有，要学习如何笑

多痛都得笑，笑了就好了

要相信，自己很幸福，要笑

LoV3 this matter

This quote is definitely no wrong in anyway. But if you use it in an extreme way, troubles are the matters.

Friend's relationship is in trouble and I feel so sad that even she told me everything but I couldn't help. Love and relationship might be involved many other people but the solution will only come out from the couple, others can't help.

Despite the solution, what they need is to stick to what they have planned. Someone once told me - - When you lost, please think back what make you start at the beginning, this will lead you to success. There is another useful quote I saw in FB - - Everything will be fine in the end, if it isn't, it is not the end.

I believe everything will be fine someday somehow, and I know this is hard, but drag is really not a good thing, it makes thing worse and cause more harm to more people and eventually yourself. So yup, be happy and live longer my dear ^^

You would sort it out, and I know it is hard at the beginning but it's really time to put an end. Please give yourself a better future instead of a complicated and messy one.

原来女生是用水做的

I am fine

I am fine. I really do. I just feel cold when night comes, feel insecure when fear hits and feel helpless when I am alone. I am fine. I can smile to everyone and myself on the mirror, I can even smile in my diary, and I am fine. =]

I used to think the power of my imagination is great, I mean strong. I can imagine anything to make myself calm and warm. I can imagine my family was watching the series with me when I was watching drama alone, I can even imagine you are right beside me when I was walking alone in the dark. Indeed, it makes me strong and independent as my friends have seen. But, today I realised, when I really feel alone in the cold, my imagination only helps me towards a bad way, I tried to imagine something good is gonna happen or a bright future, but all I had is bad dream.

Now I know, dreams change when your mood changes. And it changes when you get mature. It become strong when your naive gone.

There is always rainbow after the rain. Don’t worry my dear, just being unhappy, I will be fine when the sun rise on the next day ^^ I know I will.

Over d?

It's kinda fast...

bakka

自己犯贱要交的朋友，没人帮得到

说过不为他们哭，又哭了，真笨

但谢谢peng peng成为我诉苦的对象

借我她的肩膀

终于找到一点温暖 =]

外婆，阿姨

亲爱的外婆，我想你了，亲爱的二姨，我也想你了，比想象中还要想念你们。听到你们的声音，眼泪就不知觉，掉了。好想念你们。想告诉你们我有多不开心，我有多不适应，我有多不想成为朋友的夹心饼干，但听到你们担心的语气，自己还是忍了下来，我好想念你们，想念抱着外婆撒娇的日子。你们问我功课难吗？是难的，但我不想让你们失望，我多想告诉你们，我很不喜欢没有你们在身边的日子，我好想你们

好笨

以为自己长大了，就不会那么天真了，但...还是被骗了

以前是好友，现在是同学

大家都知道我好骗吧

但在全班面前揭穿，好玩吗？

"ohh... so huaiming..." 这句话是什么意思？

真的那么无知吗我？

全场人在笑的同时，谁发现我的无奈苦笑了

说过不再为你们哭了

我真的没哭，因为你们不值得

以为自己比以前多疑，比以前不信任人

甚至比以前会看人的心机了

但还是会忍不住相信人

你们知道吗？

我只是不想怀疑每个人说的每一句话

想想如果你在说着真话时没人相信

你寂寞吗？伤心难过吗？

无所谓了，我应该又会筑起那道墙了

这只勾起被好友欺骗的回忆

心痛的感觉，我最不想要感受的感觉

无所谓，我就是这么的笨

昨晚有想过要改变自己

但清楚知道，自己再怎么努力都学不来

那种社会的生存法则，也耍不起心机

算了吧，不应该为了人而改变的

至少做自己，我是活得开心充实的

在这天寒地冻的环境里

突然感觉自己好像一只蚂蚁

想要在这里找到可以给我一点点幸福感觉的东西

即使不是属于我的

传染给我，让我替他感受一点点的甜蜜

我就满足了

生活其实好累

从来没有停过往前冲的感觉

难道我就不能停一停

读书好累

我好累

in the air

Thank you so much... except this I don't know what can I really say.. ><

Long distance is a tough mission and different time zone has made the mission even tougher. I feel so guilty that you everyday stay up until mid night just to accompany me and have a tiring next day, I'm so sorry >< Although you told me that you were always late for class but ... still my fault..

It's really happy that I can come back on January. This makes everything seem to go to a right bright way, I was so happy that dad agreed (although with conditions), so I can step a little nearer to you.. and we can know each other more, n step closer to the hearts.

Although I never say the three words after that message, neither do you, but we both know the effect of the words is working between us. And yes! you are trying to make me more greedy! >< I thought we will ok with only chat and skype for the coming months, but now I feel like hugging you. This is definitely your fault XD

But Kit... I LOVE YOU

For ... ^^

YEAH! I am happy little girl, jumping around the room like a crazy little puppy ^^

Thank you! Thanks for everything!

I know you somehow will look at this post, so yes, I am talking to you ><

Although there might be a little awkward at first, a little stupid on me but ... who cares!! I just wanna be with you

ILU, IMU

我需要的幸福

有人能轻轻将你抱起的感觉真好

看着路边的情侣

眼中只有彼此的瞬间

自己也能感觉到他们的幸福

真好 ^^

想念你又能怎样

或许我真的不用想太多

一个人

就好

一个人的幸福

比什么都好

至少

我痛得少 ^^

a little crazy moment

Yesterday, after the potluck, suddenly felt the "braveness" and I wrote a letter. I sent it out before I finish my "braveness". Then, I go to bed. Unfortunately, I had a bad dream, this cause me woke up early in the morning and started to think if I was doing the right thing...

After a few minutes, I started to regret, why am I rushing? I asked my friends should I just delete it before he receives it when he online, everyone asks me to wait for his respond. One of my bff said :" just ask yourself, will you regret after you delete it?"

After a second, my answer is "yes, I will. and I definitely don't have the courage to send it again..."

Since I am still in UK, this makes me opportunity to escape the awkward for 10 months, so ... some crazy thing has to be done when you're still young right? ^^ I am still waiting... good or bad... no hurt no disappointing.. just wanna you to know that ... ILU

胸口的酸痛感，证明着我的心。。。还在~

cupcake,

你知道吗？我快不行了。。你一直出现在我梦里。。我好累。。讨厌我天蝎座的性格，讨厌我天蝎座的执著

眼睛离不开你的照片，我疯了

I hate u ming

You know, I really don't like here. I was a girl that will not cry when I face problem, I only will cry for the loved one, but this few days, I almost finish up the tears that I save for the past few years. I think I really can't handle it. I screwd up everything. My dad's money, my dad's wishes, my subjects, my friendships and my life. Feel like dying...

这痛，我不要了

shouldn't have tell you anything ... is not like didn't happen before ...

不哭，永远不知自己是 ... 脆弱的

我 ... 又哭了

想家，想人，想朋友

更想你了

我 ... 说过不在人面前哭的

我 ... 可以的

明天我 ... 不会哭的

我 ... 现在还是哭了

Calm

don't be so greedy my dear

you know HE had help you for the coincidents

you are not going to ask for more

your greedy will make you now

and nevertheless trouble him

remember?

you are adult-to-be

stop acting like a childish innocent lady

you are not

and you are not going to be one of them.

IMU

杯子蛋糕，

告诉你哦，我的level提升了。我已经发疯到看到你的名字会笑，听到你的名字会在心里放声大叫，紧张紧张。以为只会见到你两次，但居然连续三天都见面，开心的同时，也贪心了。心里想要再一次再一次。虽然期待会带来失望，但我不管了 ><

幸运之神好像还是疼爱我的 ^^ 10个月后见吧杯子蛋糕!

还有，可不可以不要一直让我看到你的好，给点坏嘛，我可能就不会那么爱你，那么想你了。

最后，谢谢，我会一直一直记得星期六的“我自以为的”甜蜜。可能你都已经忘了你自己做过什么，但你的小小举动，我是那么珍惜。你的好，我多想要感受到，即使是在那遥远的小岛。

婴儿蛋糕

a letter to you

Dear cupcakes,

While settling the bank thingy, I suddenly realised today is already 7^th. YES! It means there is less than 10 days. I am going to step on the different land and look at the different sky. I am not going to step on this little pretty island with you within a year. I was counting how many times I still have … the chance of seeing you are like praying to meet the pop star. I guess I still have 1 more time before I leave. Or two? Or none…

I actually don’t care how my friends look at me. Yea, I admit that when I face to someone I like … or love? … I don’t know what I should do. I feel helpless and losing my mind. I searched everything about you, I asked my friends about you and

I even try every chance to move a little closer to you. OK! I am a stalker! But only to you I swear.

My friends said, OOI HUAI MING! Siao liao ah?! Or WEI! Enough talking about him, you didn’t even know his real life. Ish~ I don’t care ^^

You know, I felt happy when you like my post, I felt like dying when you send me gift, although they are just a little thing that you would have forgotten after the next second you did it, but I melted, I really did. I wish I can read your mind, at least I know where I stand in your mind. Sometime, I was thinking “love” is so unfair. You stand an important place in my heart but maybe I was just 1/100000000000 in yours. Or maybe less than.

I wish I brave enough. I wish I can walk to you and say “hey, I like you, like … a lot”

*slap slap*

Anyway, I am going to try to forget you although I know it is not going to happen so soon. I don’t want to suffer like the life when I m in high school. I promised myself I will never make myself look like a pity little girl begging on love again. NEVER! * but I think now I really look like huh?! *

This is the first I wrote about you and I believe there are more to go. I know myself too well ^^ This may sounds emo, but actually I didn’t, I am typing in happy mode with full of the little memories we both owned.

Baby cakes

幻想

突然发觉幻想不是一件坏事，至少可以满足我小小的虚荣心，或小小的愿望，还有还有。。。小小的童话式爱情

很多人也许不削王子与公主般的爱情，但我很相信，有一天，我最喜欢的王子会牵起我的手，对我说 “我爱你”

最近爱上“芭比公主”系列的童话故事，还是很老套很幼稚，但，我就是喜欢。

幻想能满足很多现实生活里不能满足东西，如果有机会，当然一定要尝试，但如果知道没机会了，想想也不错啊，至少自己满足了，别人又不会受伤害，更不用怕困扰道他

想想，我也开心。

Smurf

The famous cartoon currently will be "The Smurf"

so, u should try to enter the smurf world with a brand new name, as in "smurf name"

http://bluebuddies.com/smurf_fun/what_is_your_smurf_name/what_is_your_smurf_name.htm

got this link from a blogger, n it's cute. I thought of sharing it on fb but I couldn't login my fb, so here it is.

It's too cute that I shouldn't keep it to myself. Oh! I got my smurf name, it's a little kiddy. It's "Baby Cakes Smurf" >< *shy*

The old town posers

I am loving my iPhone LemeLeme function. Before I actually got a proper awesome camera, iPhone will be my best buddy when I want to catch the moment.

These are the old town cats at the most historical place in Penang. They are cute and unexpectedly, a poser. They actually posed when I took out my iPhone ^^ *how cute!!!*

Before I took up my iPhone, they were sleeping. Nice to meet you ^^ old town cats

Great Performance

Thanks to my internet speed, finally I can upload my photos ^^

As I mentioned, my nieces' performances. Here we go ^^

This is a charity performance held by the JET kinder garden. My eldest niece did perform once about a year ago. But this time, two of my nieces are going to perform together on the same stage and it's my 2nd niece, Qin first performance! It's huge in our family ^^

My 3 years old niece, Qin

My 6 years old niece, Nee

DONE make up ^^

DONE too ><

Teachers were arranging their rows

The Kids

My 2 pretty princesses were wearing malay baju kurung ^^

The song name I guess was "Kita orang Malaysia", due to some technical problem, their dance was forced to stop before the song was actually done playing.

As we expected, Nee danced very well but Qin was kinda "cheaty" on the stage. Some more dare to show me ghost face while performing. But, at least the "crying princess" didn't cry on the stage, in fact she was kinda enjoy, I guess is because her sis was just right in front her ><

Little adult huh? ><

After that, went to Bro's old friend's son full month party. His house is just beside the QE II and of course beside the sea. BBQ and hear bro's friends talked about their past ><

The 2 fatty ><'''

The view and feeling was good but not the smell please ><

new born baby shouldn't take picture so ... no photo allowed ><

<良藥苦口利於身，忠言逆耳利於行>

忠言逆耳，懂不懂，做不做，行不行，就看你的造化了

Bao Bei

Xiao Bai

Xiao Bai

and Xiao Bai

You're getting fat, naughty and dirty now ><

But I still love you, except your habit that like to bite my feet ><

*next will be my nieces dancing post ^^, I think I should rajin a bit d >< post blog, blog and blogsssss

Who will blog on Saturday night?! It's a night to be fun, sad to say that, I will~

Before I came to "new post", It seems a lot of things appear into my mind that I wish to write out, but, once I connected to the "posting" part, phoo, gone. Never mind, I don't mind to blog some crap since this blog only who know me will view ^^

Last week, my internet get cut off due to my brother forgot to pay the fee for 3 months, unbelievable thing happened! I still can survive in my house without any internet, Woo! GROWN??!! Teehhh!! Wrong. I got bunch of taiwan, hongkong, korean and chine series to finish. Luckily this just happened for one week.

and YES, after two weeks, my room finally can be say as clean =) so ... welcome to my room ><

Should I throw all my magazines or buy another bookshelf? hmmm. I think I would take the former since I have no money to buy something expensive.

Let's see what else can I crap about...

Recently was insane about iPhone applications, normally is camera and games. Due to my laziness, photos are not going to be upload here, you may waiting on fb to try ur luck ^^

Holidays are not fun at all, especially when everyone is not in holiday mood as u and u are holiday while waiting letter to be sent to u *Big Sad Face*

Feel like going outstation, Bangkok or the city of lion? Useless B! Go ur own without me, no souvenir for u when I come back from study!! But you must bring me souvenir, I Don't Care!!!

day with 2 naughties

Annyeonghaseyo!

It's been some time I did not blog with a real photo right? So, since I was so embarrass today because of my 2 darlings, I am going to mark it down as an evidence, remind me how u treat me~ sob sob~ *but I will still love u as usual, muakZ*

The first photo was a total failure due to the naughty keep chasing me back, but it's cute doesn't it? This is after bath and injection ^^ now they smell so nice but after a week of no shower due to the injection, they will SMELL even "better".

Let's start the story. Is the forth month, that's mean "xiao bai" needs his second injection. Since I know he cannot shower for one week after the injection, so I showered this naughty and his mother, my "chow chow" before we heading to the clinic. Phew~ shower for both of them is a total torture because naughty like to climb to my back and smell plus bite my hair, this makes me so hard to shower chow chow, even harder to shower him.

After my own shower, I brought them into my car and when I start my engine @.@ Chow chow poo! Gosh! It's super smelly, at first I thought I can stand to reach the clinic but no way! I return to home and clean it up and start our journey again. But I suddenly realised I did not bring their clinic cards, head back to take and start our JOURNEY again!

Reach. Finally? NO! The story just begin! I asked "xiao bai" to wait me in car and told him I will come back for him after I settle chow chow, so he sat on my seat properly. I opened the back door and chow chow lost control, she ran out. It's too fast to let me think, I chase her without lock my car and take my purse >< She is a fast runner, there's few workers help me to chase but none of them reach her. Luckily, I am a fast runner too ^^ I manage to catch her but she drag me on the sand floor and plant me some scratch Y.Y

I thought everything will be fine on the road to the clinic but she drag me to bang my head on a car and makes me fell down with a super ugly position in font of 7 or 8 shops with 20 plus people starring on me. This is insane! I stood up and ran. Finally reach the clinic and I realised there is a new worker, so I passed to him and told me to hold chow chow, cause xiao bai is waiting with tears! I did not wait him to answer and I ran out again. I still can remember his shocking face, I think because my hair was super messy and my hands hurt!

Finally the two in clinic ad when I was dealing with the new guy about their records, the two poo and pee all around the clinic @.@ Worst day ever! They never did that to me before, revenge for leaving them in Penang alone for 1 week? *faint*

When I opened the doctor's door, ah ha, the new worker is the doctor, awkward~ I thought he was just a worker. I always meet another elder doctor and today he is not here. The new guy was very nice and told me some dog's things that I should know. Not to mention his good looking ^^ *this is the POINT*

They helped me to put them into my car and FINALLY they are home. Send my car to wash as well wash my own self. NAP! What a tiring day with my 2 naughty darlings.

I am happy that u understand what I said ^^ love u naughty

This bad girl knock me down @.@ but I will still love u, with a condition that u will never do that to me agin, MuakZ

I hope I could live with them for the rest of my life, You'll always be my love ♥♥

My dearest BFF

Great gathering tonight. Although there's people couldn't make it but still GREAT CHATTING. Did a lot of catch up ^^ which is what this gathering meant to be. I am so glad that I have this bunch of friends to be my best friends, from the beginning until the end of this long life. It's hard to find a group of good friends in this cruel society. Although I still have other groups of best friends but this group! We start our faith since we were in primary school! This is too precious and it's meant to be held in tight.

I am glad that everyone is healthy and happy like we always do. Love stories are composing everywhere, no matter in Aussie or KL. We treat our love right and serious with different methods. That's why we both have our love stories composing smoothly. *crossfingers* PROMISE we must happy together forever and ever after.

We met different people and have our different stories and love stories. As long as the right person treat us well and the society haven't knock us down, we are still the lucky one!

I love u, my friends <3<3

There are a lot of things we would not say it clear but we know it well. Anything happen, there's always friends beside and behind, so don't afraid of lying down.

Maybe we cannot meet for the coming days and months but we are still each other best friends >< muakz

Ello people! Again, It's time to summarize what I have been done during the period I disappear ^^

First, my puppy "xiao bai" grow with double speed, so now he is a HUGE puppy

*p.s. no more little so BE CAREFUL!

Second, went malacca v Kumar, Egg and Chang Jie. 3 days 2 nights, oppss, 3 days 3 nights plus P.D. as well >< It was totally FUN and tired!

Third, oh la is back and now he is staying in my previous room in rainbow house. So, ah ha, I dun have room to stay when I m there.

Forth, Caca is back too, but just for 2 weeks and until now, I just met her once Y^Y

Fifth, Oh yea, I failed my law and religion. The very first subject I have to resit ><. My dad scolded me so hard, he blamed me because I broke my record and wasted his RM100...

Last but not least, a little announcement that maybe will cause me trouble tomorrow, I have a bf again!

smack on forehead? yea, I know I am not following what I said previously, but I can't help but follow my feeling. and the "BF" is not others, is ... you yi Egg! haha, I know... u guys will probably think, "luckily is not a new one ><"

the statement of " I am loyal" seems doesn't suit me anymore

-the end-

I wonder why I can be such a weird person and I never know what I really need =(

What I may lost if I din say

It's been a month and I practically doing nothing in my house. It's not actually 'nothing' but it's just not something that makes me excited and alive. I am so damn very super boring. Luckily, there's friends around me, Reelee, Robin, Egg and Mj. But, still bored. I need something more meaningful to appear in font of me. Not true love please, I want it few years later, thanks.

Anyway, just thinking of telling something that recently makes me down and teas a lot.

Kumar, Egg, Peng, Irene - "I know it's quite difficult to tell u how much I care. I am not good in express my love either by actions or words. But I do care. I miss the time we are studying. We together wake up, go college, lunch, shop, play, movie, cook, dinner, wandering, swim, gym, celebrating, fighting with our main enemy - cockroach. I miss that a lot, is like A LOT. I know there's still a trip! Although don't know when, I hope you guys can wait me recover from my operation. I really wish to spend more time with u guys. Like a "family". There are fight, quarrel and sad things happened among us but there's lot more fun and happiness we earned together. I love you! maybe more than u ever thought."

Nicholas, Rainbow, Cai Chin - " You guys makes us so much fun, you touch my deepest heart many times, you guys are awesome! I love evey of us play and laugh together. I love every moments we been through!"

KarWai, YingPhin, WeeJian - "you guys are fun and a little crazy that makes me totally fell back to my 18th! It's nice and FUN! I miss DongZhen Camp when we are staying and playing together. Of course gils' talk with my dearest Phin^^"

A little regret choosing the twinning programme, it's like separating us apart, we used to be stick together for the whole long day. Badminton section? it seems far from me now. In Penang, here's never a thing can be fun like this. No sports, no energy, no healthy. Anyway, I miss you, I love you!

*p.s. hey, still remember the story of sausage? cheese and black pepper? I still prefer cheese >< Peng, black pepper is yours <3<3

I think I am just a little missing you <3

Thank you for everything!

Really!

and yea, It happened, again~ Y^Y

Wonderful!

After so long, I decided to let my heart locked again!

It's been so long I use it and didn't give it a rest

Now,

for the sake of my future,

for the sake of my health,

for the sake of my feeling,

for the sake of my family,

for the sake of not hurting anyone,

for the sake of not being hurt,

I locked it again.

When will I let it function again?

This ... I would say :"till the day it feel it worth to"

This of course not for my family and neither to my friends

I am tired to be someone's someone

I should be just MYSELF

It's indeed my fault

I should have think it properly

I love my ex roommate!

This two times! She warned me a lot

I will listen to you next time I PROMISE

I know, I am a big trouble,

even my beloved parents said that,

what I choose to do would totally surprise them,

out of their expect and of course to my friends as well.

Good or Bad? depends~

I am selfish,

I am greedy,

I am weird,

I am who I am.

I can say there is never a person can change me if I don't want to,

even my family.

I rather a friend hates me or back stab me than I go after her like a puppy

That just makes her not even call as a "friend" to me

A bit go wrong way =='''

What I am trying to say is

"don't judge a book by its cover"

the quotation above I used to feel that it is for those childish kids,

to prove that they are cool and everything they done is not their fault and its under their control

However, now I feel I just need it to express

although I added something I feel childish as well

"don't judge a book by its cover and expect it to be something you thought of which in fact it is nothing of what you thought at the first place"

yea, it came like this.

Overall, It is not FULLY my fault

I m wrong as well as you

Now, my goal is

1. Finish degree with flying colours *this is a MUST*

2. Further my studies until I can officially work

3. Earn more money to take care of my parents, my grandparents, my siblings, my nieces and my DOG's future.

4. I want to be someone independent enough to hold the world by my own hands

How to decide?

Since there are possibility that it would happen again

how I gonna let it hurt you again?

Is not like I don't know you

I know you well, this is why I am so hard to make decision

Totally not in study mode!

I just LOVE to be "ME"

now, not only my "ME"

I am enjoying being your "ME" too

Love u so much of course

and I miss you!

That's my B

n This is ME!

They are us recently, preparing our weapon to fight on the REAL war!

Our friendnemy is of course our Y2 exam!!

So everyday you would probably see us hanging around in Fo Xue Yuan~

What a wonderful month~

*should I say "with love"??*

Yea, probably when we gone through~

MUAKZ!!

Puppies!

Chow Chow was pregnant for the past 2 months and my whole family did not notice it, even me, the one that always shower for her! ridiculous isn't it??

My brother woke me up from my lovely nap and told me my chow chow get raped, my first reaction was "she always get raped~" and the next second, my brother told me that when he reach home, what he saw was blood and a puppy rolling on floor, he was shocked! And yes! 4 puppies came to this world in this meaningful day 03042011. Why is it meaningful? because they gave birth when I was cooking "yi" ^^

I was so "gan cheong", I thought my dog don't know how to give birth and I some more ask my brother send her to hospital, and nevertheless, my brother ignored me. ==''' However, this breaks the statement that my dog is a lesbian and she cannot pregnant ( I sent her to intercourse with other male dogs before but failed to pregnant). Maybe she still les?? because she get raped, not purposely go seduce male dogs perhaps? haha

Fortunately, she was fine after give birth to the 4 puppies which I already give them names now. 1st white male puppy is Aussie, 2nd black male puppy is Bugsy, 3rd black female puppy is Chiko and the last white male is Doodle. ABCD so cute!!! Chow Chow is weak, I should cook birdnest for her perhaps?? ^^

Go back next week just to see them, although I promise my parents won't go back until mid of April. ^^P Hope to see them in real but not 3G! will post up photos probably ^^ *HAPPY*!!!

I Love U