There is a ridiculous thought that always appear in my mind. What if you just jump out and say: SURPRISE! I might hug u tight and say "don't ever do this to me again!"... funny huh? This is something never going to happen, I know. Friends told me it's time to wake up, this ain't a dream, stop thinking these are all a nightmare, this is reality, he's left. I know, I really know, I just trying to escape, so can u please just give me sometime, some place to escape? I will be fine, just that it would take longer than u thought, don't rush me please? I feel tired, I feel alone, I feel helpless.. I know no one can ever help, I really know.. n I know I will break down one day.. a day that I choose not to think.
I had a dream, about us, few nights ago? It was so beautiful that I wish I could stay inside for the rest of my life. It was so real, my dream never be that real before. I woke up with a smile on my face, wide smile. It was so beautiful, u seem to be still u, never change, caring, warm, happy, a little naughty. U held me tight every seconds in that dream. It was beautiful <3 p="p">
Been thinking this for the whole day. If, tomorrow is the end of the world, will you stay with me until the end of the world? will u find me for the one last time? I actually know the answer. Just I don't want to admit it. Whatever!
Time, please run faster, until the day I couldn't remember anything about us, a day that I lost all my memories about u, a day that I won't cry hard just because a sudden image that appear in my mind.
Bali, maybe I won't visit u anymore
16.11.12
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I just want to change a profile picture, but when i flipped my camera album ... tears dropped. Your fault! What a stupid promise! a photo per day? Now it full with your photos! I used to put a smile on my face whole day because of the photo, now ... I can't stop ... What happen? How I wish I can know it earlier... How I wish God tell me before I fell... How I wish everything was just a nightmare... At least I will feel warm again when I wake up. How I wish...
02.11.2012
可能很多人会不认同，但生日对我来说，好象只是一个提醒我人生数字的日子，不过比较好？不，是过不过都好。生日祝福收不收都好？有时在想，如果没有FB提醒，有朋友会记得我的生日吗？所以，真心给的祝福收就好。
怕自己怕寂寞，所以生日前夕都约朋友了，但，还是被老天将了一军，连被两位朋友放了飞机，这边就开始下起大雨，应景啊! 所以，生日前夕，对不起，帮不到你，还是一个人懒在家里。
为什么怕寂寞呢？我不知道，至少我现在还不寂寞，我只是怕。偶像剧好像永远都是我的情人，永远远吗？
希望我的今晚不寂寞，好好过，自己对自己说，生日快乐
从小就很相信星座，但有一阵子不信了，现在好像又不得不信了。我，太像我的星座了。执着，固执，不服输，中的，都是些有的没的缺点，有点呢？会看人，睿智，读心，好像一个也没有。但，最讽刺的，是中了“享受寂寞，也害怕寂寞”。我喜欢一个人，但，有时我又不喜欢一个人。我好怪。
最近越来越多人说，我很怪，想法怪，行为怪，脾气怪，朋友怪。我的人生就那么怪吗？他离开我，会不会是受不了我的怪啊？我姐说是。可能，我该活在几米的"失乐园"里吧。
但，怎么怪都还是我，不需要人来肯定，懂我的人，会懂的 =)
怕自己怕寂寞，所以生日前夕都约朋友了，但，还是被老天将了一军，连被两位朋友放了飞机，这边就开始下起大雨，应景啊! 所以，生日前夕，对不起，帮不到你，还是一个人懒在家里。
为什么怕寂寞呢？我不知道，至少我现在还不寂寞，我只是怕。偶像剧好像永远都是我的情人，永远远吗？
希望我的今晚不寂寞，好好过，自己对自己说，生日快乐
从小就很相信星座，但有一阵子不信了，现在好像又不得不信了。我，太像我的星座了。执着，固执，不服输，中的，都是些有的没的缺点，有点呢？会看人，睿智，读心，好像一个也没有。但，最讽刺的，是中了“享受寂寞，也害怕寂寞”。我喜欢一个人，但，有时我又不喜欢一个人。我好怪。
最近越来越多人说，我很怪，想法怪，行为怪，脾气怪，朋友怪。我的人生就那么怪吗？他离开我，会不会是受不了我的怪啊？我姐说是。可能，我该活在几米的"失乐园"里吧。
但，怎么怪都还是我，不需要人来肯定，懂我的人，会懂的 =)
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