One Direction - Tell Me A Lie (lyrics+pictures)

17.07.2013

Finally! My hectic days are over! It's time for me to have REAL fun! Actually, my holidays started week ago but to me, it seems like it has been few months. I got no idea why I'm feeling this way, probably because too much outings nowadays. Non-stop outings since Wednesday night. Sometime I was thinking.. maybe I just want to cover back the fun part that I lost for previous months. Yea right.. Playful!

It's been 9 months. Nah, it's more than that. I'm thinking when is the day that I could lose counting. I don't know what I want and I don't know what I need. No ones could help, I know only me that can figure it out myself. Love isn't my thing maybe. I feel lonely but ironically I'm enjoying it. I know I am hiding in a place that I built up myself to block everything that could really hurt the deep part of me. It's not a good thing but is not that bad isn't it? I feel safe when I'm in there. Just don't have to care whatever shits that happened.

Future? Career? Nah. Wait for my result in September. I don't want to do anything during this period. My dad is kind enough to feed me I guess ^^ Travelling trips adventure drink swim! Anything! I want to enjoy it to the max and back to the reality in September. If pass, yea, chamber and here comes my bright future; fail? It's ok, "everything has their first time" -- Dato Mokhtar Hashim's case. LOL Retake and see ya in UM hall next year.

Kinda enjoy when I was a workaholic, no worries, those days are approaching, but it feels like ISH! Why I have to grow up? Why can’t I be your baby princess for my lifetime, dad? Since I’m the youngest >.<

Enough crapping! Enough KL outings, it’s time to go home, next stop, Penang! But, where to go? Who to find? It’s ok, I just miss my home and dogs. Maybe I should blog about Europe trip before I forget everything and blog whatever shit I feel like when I am really free.

Lastly, pray hard that I don’t see shit in Penang! I don’t want to ruin my mood and escape back to KL, tiring!

Stupid! 9 months d! Everthing still very clear in my mind, everything become more details day by day. Every months around that time, you definitely appear in my dream! And EVERYTIME I still hope it isn't a dream. Can't you just leave me alone? I hate u! I should! Tatata bala tui! U idiot! Just don't ever appear in my life! I HATE YOU! I hope I can hate u like how much I love you...