a little crazy moment

Yesterday, after the potluck, suddenly felt the "braveness" and I wrote a letter. I sent it out before I finish my "braveness". Then, I go to bed. Unfortunately, I had a bad dream, this cause me woke up early in the morning and started to think if I was doing the right thing...

After a few minutes, I started to regret, why am I rushing? I asked my friends should I just delete it before he receives it when he online, everyone asks me to wait for his respond. One of my bff said :" just ask yourself, will you regret after you delete it?"

After a second, my answer is "yes, I will. and I definitely don't have the courage to send it again..."

Since I am still in UK, this makes me opportunity to escape the awkward for 10 months, so ... some crazy thing has to be done when you're still young right? ^^ I am still waiting... good or bad... no hurt no disappointing.. just wanna you to know that ... ILU

胸口的酸痛感，证明着我的心。。。还在~

cupcake,

你知道吗？我快不行了。。你一直出现在我梦里。。我好累。。讨厌我天蝎座的性格，讨厌我天蝎座的执著

眼睛离不开你的照片，我疯了

I hate u ming

You know, I really don't like here. I was a girl that will not cry when I face problem, I only will cry for the loved one, but this few days, I almost finish up the tears that I save for the past few years. I think I really can't handle it. I screwd up everything. My dad's money, my dad's wishes, my subjects, my friendships and my life. Feel like dying...

这痛，我不要了

shouldn't have tell you anything ... is not like didn't happen before ...

不哭，永远不知自己是 ... 脆弱的

我 ... 又哭了

想家，想人，想朋友

更想你了

我 ... 说过不在人面前哭的

我 ... 可以的

明天我 ... 不会哭的

我 ... 现在还是哭了

Calm

don't be so greedy my dear

you know HE had help you for the coincidents

you are not going to ask for more

your greedy will make you now

and nevertheless trouble him

remember?

you are adult-to-be

stop acting like a childish innocent lady

you are not

and you are not going to be one of them.

IMU

杯子蛋糕，

告诉你哦，我的level提升了。我已经发疯到看到你的名字会笑，听到你的名字会在心里放声大叫，紧张紧张。以为只会见到你两次，但居然连续三天都见面，开心的同时，也贪心了。心里想要再一次再一次。虽然期待会带来失望，但我不管了 ><

幸运之神好像还是疼爱我的 ^^ 10个月后见吧杯子蛋糕!

还有，可不可以不要一直让我看到你的好，给点坏嘛，我可能就不会那么爱你，那么想你了。

最后，谢谢，我会一直一直记得星期六的“我自以为的”甜蜜。可能你都已经忘了你自己做过什么，但你的小小举动，我是那么珍惜。你的好，我多想要感受到，即使是在那遥远的小岛。

婴儿蛋糕

a letter to you

Dear cupcakes,

While settling the bank thingy, I suddenly realised today is already 7^th. YES! It means there is less than 10 days. I am going to step on the different land and look at the different sky. I am not going to step on this little pretty island with you within a year. I was counting how many times I still have … the chance of seeing you are like praying to meet the pop star. I guess I still have 1 more time before I leave. Or two? Or none…

I actually don’t care how my friends look at me. Yea, I admit that when I face to someone I like … or love? … I don’t know what I should do. I feel helpless and losing my mind. I searched everything about you, I asked my friends about you and

I even try every chance to move a little closer to you. OK! I am a stalker! But only to you I swear.

My friends said, OOI HUAI MING! Siao liao ah?! Or WEI! Enough talking about him, you didn’t even know his real life. Ish~ I don’t care ^^

You know, I felt happy when you like my post, I felt like dying when you send me gift, although they are just a little thing that you would have forgotten after the next second you did it, but I melted, I really did. I wish I can read your mind, at least I know where I stand in your mind. Sometime, I was thinking “love” is so unfair. You stand an important place in my heart but maybe I was just 1/100000000000 in yours. Or maybe less than.

I wish I brave enough. I wish I can walk to you and say “hey, I like you, like … a lot”

*slap slap*

Anyway, I am going to try to forget you although I know it is not going to happen so soon. I don’t want to suffer like the life when I m in high school. I promised myself I will never make myself look like a pity little girl begging on love again. NEVER! * but I think now I really look like huh?! *

This is the first I wrote about you and I believe there are more to go. I know myself too well ^^ This may sounds emo, but actually I didn’t, I am typing in happy mode with full of the little memories we both owned.

Baby cakes

幻想

突然发觉幻想不是一件坏事，至少可以满足我小小的虚荣心，或小小的愿望，还有还有。。。小小的童话式爱情

很多人也许不削王子与公主般的爱情，但我很相信，有一天，我最喜欢的王子会牵起我的手，对我说 “我爱你”

最近爱上“芭比公主”系列的童话故事，还是很老套很幼稚，但，我就是喜欢。

幻想能满足很多现实生活里不能满足东西，如果有机会，当然一定要尝试，但如果知道没机会了，想想也不错啊，至少自己满足了，别人又不会受伤害，更不用怕困扰道他

想想，我也开心。